Magic was never scary to me. That’s why finding out I was afraid of it caught me completely off guard and left me spinning.
For years I’d been working with magic without calling it that. I wrote little songs for myself, repeated like chants, to help me manifest a newspaper column, my husband, and plenty of smaller things along the way.
I didn’t think of it as magic but as a way to focus my energy. However, once my magic coach pointed out what I was actually doing, an old fear surfaced right alongside the curiosity. I had no idea where it came from.
That question sent me looking for an answer, and what I found was a protective wall around my own heart. Two walls, actually, discovered years apart, protecting two very different parts of my life. Here’s both stories, plus what I’m doing about it at a live event on July 29th.
The Cage Around My Heart
Back in 2020, stuck inside during Covid like everyone else, I started working with a magic coach named Mikala. She helped me see the magic I’d already been using for years without naming it. That was exciting and also the moment the fear showed up.
It wasn’t rational. I wasn’t casting spells or doing anything harmful, just directing my energy toward what I wanted. But the dread was real once I discovered this was magic. So, I went looking for its source the way I usually do with past-life work. This is a healing modality I’ve relied on for close to 30 years.
The Akashic Records had already revealed plenty to me about past lives and how they influence me today. Like why calligraphy came so naturally. I had been a monk illuminating Bibles in the Middle Ages, as it turned out.
This time, what I found was darker. I discovered a life in Venice that ended with my head removed for practicing magic with a group. There was also a pattern of betrayal tied to magic showing up more than once.
So by 2022, I decided to finally work through it using a meditation based on Dr. Bradley Nelson’s Emotion Code He created this idea that we sometimes create a protective wall around the heart that can block us instead of helping us.
Asking to See the Wall
I set my intention to heal my fear of magic. Then I asked to see the wall in this gentle meditation.
What appeared was a stone dungeon. I was standing inside a metal cage, spikes pointing inward at heart level which seems like something straight out of a horror film. I didn’t know how to dismantle it myself, so I asked my guides to handle it. The metal melted into a puddle at my feet.
Then it reformed into a metal plate with two interlocking hearts, one pointed down and one pointed up, woven together like the Star of David. I stopped the meditation right there, went to my computer, and looked up the symbol. It represents unity. One heart and the end of duality. Whoa – that felt important.
Going back into the meditation, I asked what that meant for me and my magic. The answer was to stand on the plate whenever I do magic now. It will keep me safe.
I still don’t cast spells or light ritual candles, though there’s nothing wrong with that path for someone else. However, these days I talk about magic openly with clients, with friends, or anyone curious enough to ask. A few years ago I never would have said that out loud.
Is Your Subconscious Keeping You Too Safe?
Fast forward to this year, I decided to share this powerful, yet completely safe process. So, I created the live Heart Wall Meditation event for July 29th. To go a bit deeper, I thought the best thing was to run the process on myself again, but this time with a different intention which was friendship.
Midlife has a way of thinning out your circle of friends. People move, pass away, and drift apart. Each time it happened, I told myself I’d go make new friends, and then did nothing. That bothered me, because I’m a social person who works alone at home and genuinely craves connection. So, why the stall?
I sat down and asked my subconscious to show me what was in the way. A wall appeared but this time it was brick, not a metal cage. Big, solid, and completely unexpected. I was totally shocked! I asked the wall if it had a message for me and it explained why it was there. Then I asked if I could take it down and got an immediate yes.
I decided to have some fun with it and imagined a ray gun. One blast and the wall came apart, leaving a pile of rubble. I told the rubble to sink into the earth and be recycled. Gone.
Except I wasn’t quite finished. Something told me to look again, and a white stockade fence appeared. It was six or seven feet tall, points on top, and solid. I imagined a saw and cut a doorway in the middle, then walked through to the other side. Nothing there but open grass. When I turned back, I gave the fence a gentle push and it fell flat, then dissolved.
Remove Old Walls of Protection
Two walls, two completely different methods to demolish them. One I blew apart, the other I removed gently. Both ways worked just as well! That’s the part that surprises people most.
Your subconscious isn’t working against you. There’s no battle required. It’s simply doing its job to protect you, but with outdated information. That means you don’t actually need it and get to choose how you clear it. Fierce or gentle, the wall still comes down either way.
What struck me afterward is that I’d cleared heart walls before around magic, around business. But it never occurred to me to check friendship. Now I’m more open to new people than I’ve been in years.
What This Means For You
Both stories point to the same truth. Your subconscious builds walls to protect you, using old information that may no longer apply. The protection can end up costing you more than it saves, whether that’s your magic, your business, your relationships, or your sense of safety in the world.
The good news is that you don’t need decades of past-life work, shadow work or inner child digging to find your own wall. You just need a willingness to see it, ask what it’s doing, and be rid of it.
If any of this stirred something in you, I’m hosting a live Heart Wall Meditation on July 29th where we’ll go through the process together. You can register here.
Does Your Heart Have A Wall Protecting You From Something You Want?
A heart wall is a protective barrier around the heart. It might look like a wall of some kind in front of you or some other protective mechanism in meditation. It could be metal, brick, glass, or a fence that shields you from old pain. The problem is it can also block what you want now.Fear of something you love or desire, like intuition, love, or a thriving business, can exist side by side with genuine enthusiasm for it. The two aren’t contradictory.Heart walls can show up around any part of life including spiritual growth, creativity, career, family, and you may have more than one without realizing it.You can clear a heart wall by any creative method that you imagine. It might be with force like throwing a grenade to demolish it or gently by simply opening a door or pushing it over. Both are equally effective.Your subconscious mind isn’t an obstacle you have to fight. Thankfully, it’s job is to protect you, often using outdated information. That’s why the walls come down more easily than you’d expect once you become aware of them and ask.Noticing a pattern of avoidance in your life, like a friendship you keep meaning to build or a goal you keep circling, is often a sign that a protective heart wall is involved.FAQs
What is a heart wall? A heart wall is a protective barrier the subconscious builds around the heart, often in response to past pain or trauma. It’s meant to keep you safe, but it can also block love, opportunity, or connection you’re consciously trying to invite in.
Can you have more than one heart wall? Yes. Heart walls tend to be specific to different areas of life. It’s entirely possible to clear one around business or intuition, and still have another, separate wall around friendship, love, or health that hasn’t been addressed yet.
How do you clear a heart wall? Through a guided visualization, you ask to see the wall, then ask permission to remove it. The method varies from person to person. Some walls dissolve gently, others need to be broken apart. But both approaches are equally effective at clearing the block.
Is a heart wall the same as a limiting belief? They’re related but not identical. A limiting belief is a thought pattern; a heart wall is more of a protective structure the subconscious builds around it. Clearing the wall often makes the underlying belief far easier to shift.
What can a heart wall block besides love? A heart wall can block any form of connection or flow including creativity, magic, friendship, business success, romance, or receiving support from others.
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