I don't know when the switch happened. I haven't been able to pinpoint it, but at some point I went from recognizing that I was attracted to women to really embracing that I was attracted to women. I remember my conversations with people started to change. Initially I was very hesitant to tell people that I was dating women and then at some point I just started not being concerned about their reaction. It wasn't a particularly healthy acceptance at first. I was gay and I supposed I was going to burn in Hell and I had just become resigned to my fate. Therapy helped me change my attitude toward that (thank goodness). I was only in the cynical phase for a few months, but long story short: at some point you will move from "I have these feelings for women" to "I am attracted to women and that is a positive thing". 

If you need someone to vent to, or to get something off your chest but you don't feel like you can tell anyone in your personal life, please shoot me a message. You're not alone. 

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