I have come to realize that I struggle with perfectionism. I have always wanted to do the best and be the best. Sucking has never been an option for me. But obviously, we all have to learn new things, and we can't be great at something brand new to us. Furthermore, we can't lie to ourselves about how good we are at things we have been doing for a long time. I've had to realize that I am not the best at everything I do. I've realized that while striving to be the best is good, it's more important to be humble, realize there is always room for improvement, and always work on improving, regardless of comparisons to others or anyone else's standards. I also have to give myself grace to suck at new things and manage my expectations for how quickly it will actually take to get good. What's most important is to endure the suck and never quit.