In this episode, I hit a wall—and I don’t clean it up. I talk about what it feels like to be doing all the “right” things—therapy, journaling, movement, rest, reflection—and still feel like I’m falling apart. I wrestle with the chaos of life, the illusion of control, and that haunting thought: “Is this how it’s always going to be?” Along the way, I reflect on a line from Living Buddha, Living Christ that shifted something in me: “It’s not a matter of faith. It’s a matter of practice.” This isn’t an episode with answers. It’s one with questions. The kind that stay with you long after you stop recording. If you’ve ever felt frustrated by the gap between your effort and your peace—this one’s for you.

As always, I’m not here to give you answers.

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