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Quick updates! Today I graduate. Yes, officially graduate. ParteiiiiI. Am I too excited? Actually, I'm not really that excited. I mean I'm excited but nervous as well. I'm gonna venture into a whole ew journey by myself without teachers or anybody guiding me. And I'm not ready for becoming a working adult. Scary. I hope I'll be okay, I'll be all right. Just stay positive. I want to say congratulations to the class of 2021. You guys all did a great job in the last four years and made it through. Proud of you guys and proud of myself.

Four years is not too long but not too short. There were a lot of things happening. I don’t know if you guys regret anything. But now I'm looking back, I regret not doing a few things. And in today's episode, the story today is all about my biggest university regret. And if you are a university student or about to be university student, I hope you're not doing the same thing as I did.

So, the thing I regret the most is that I didn’t open myself to make friends sooner and didn’t really focus on studying at the beginning of my first year.

Before I go any further, let ... let me paint an overall picture of university first. Studying at university is totally a different experience to that in high school. You are treated as an adult which means you are gonna be fully responsible for your studying, your own education. No one is going to do this for you but you. No one is going to remind you when the midterms or the finals take place. There are no pop-up tests during the course, no calling parents if you skip classes, and no parent-teacher meeting, therefore you may feel under less or even no pressure.

All of these things are ideal conditions for my laziness to grow, and along with my thinking at that time "Let's take a rest. I worked so hard in high school”, I allowed my self to relax and I gradually became a lazier version of myself. I didn't take school seriously. I didn’t care much about what I studied and what was going on at school. And now looking back I just wish that I didn't think that way.

Moreover, my first-year university experience was very boring. Because there was no one that I really knew at university. I walked around completely on my own. Every time I went to classes, I didn't have a sense of belonging. I did not really have the enthusiasm for the classes. I mean I wasn't really socially outcast. I did talk to people but I just didn't want to initiate a friendship. I thought I was going to be okay, I was going to be all right. Because I just spent a few hours at school each day, there was no need to make friends at all. I don't know what the heck was happening to me at that time. That's the most stupid thing, craziest thing that I have ever thought in my whole life. I made the wrong move. And that's why I think my first years were wasted.  

That resulted in my GPAs at the end of the first four semesters were not good. And it was not until the third year that I started to change and become a better version of myself thanks to people that I've met. My third year at university is the most amazing year that has ever happened to me. Ever. I started to open myself and make friends. And then, I met a group of friends who are like-minded and very supportive not only with school challenges but also life challenges as well. They give a feeling like I'm a part of a big family because they always listen to my stories and never judge. They respect my difference and my own opinions. I was always looking forward to school because I knew they would be there. We would sit down and had a laugh. Actually, I saw them in the first years because we all studied English for Teaching. But as I said, I didn't want to make friends at that time so ... But I'm glad finally I've made something right. Now I'm friend with them. I'm very happy about that.

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THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!