I was in a very dark place where I was battling my own demons I wasn’t happy with the relationship that I was in I was very unhappy for a long time I felt trapped I was finding my way to get out of this situation before it gets worst.

I was in a very dark place where I was battling my own demons I wasn’t happy with the relationship that I was in I was very unhappy for a long time I felt trapped I was finding my way to get out of this situation before it gets worst.

I was in a very dark place where I was battling my own demons I wasn’t happy with the relationship that I was in I was very unhappy for a long time I felt trapped I was finding my way to get out of this situation before it gets worst.&nbsp;

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The long term trauma and mental health as I have suffered from being the golden child at the age sixteen years old even before that I was dealing with situation that was more serious. I suffer from depression, suicidal thoughts where I ended up in the institution hospital being supervised for trying to kill myself three times before, also I suffered from PTSD from all that trauma that I went through with my mother and my grandmother for all these years I was being lied to by this person who was only using me for source of supply. I defended this person in public when everybody didn’t like her or hearing the things she was doing behind the scene I was blind by her love and that was my mistake as a man because you can’t help who you love. I disrespected myself so much to the point where it was more genuine on my side than it was on her. In the end she hurt me she hurt everybody els around her because she selfish I don’t deserve that nobody does  Being the "golden child" in a dysfunctional or narcissistic family often involves a long-term emotional toll characterized by immense pressure to maintain an idealized image, leading to deep-seated anxiety and a struggle to form an independent identity. This role, while appearing favored, often forces the child to suppress their own emotions and desires to meet unrealistic parental demands, resulting in chronic self-esteem issues and emotional exhaustion.The Long-Term Impact of Being the Golden ChildThe "golden child" role frequently leads to complex psychological challenges in adulthood:<ul>
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Conditional Self-Worth: Many golden children connect their value solely to their achievements and parental approval, struggling to feel good about themselves when they are not meeting external expectations.</li>
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Persistent Anxiety and Perfectionism: The constant pressure to be perfect and excel in all areas can lead to high-stress levels, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, OCD, and a debilitating fear of failure.</li>
<li>
Identity and Independence Struggles: Because their identity is so intertwined with their parents' dreams, adult golden children often feel lost or disconnected from their true selves and may struggle with independent decision-making.</li>
<li>
Relationship and Boundary Issues: Growing up where love was conditional can lead to insecure or avoidant attachment styles in adult relationships. They may struggle to set boundaries, often putting others' needs before their own in a constant fight for approval.</li>
<li>
Internal Emptiness and Burnout: Maintaining a fake persona over years often leads to long-term emotional exhaustion, burnout, and a sense of inner emptiness</li>
</ul>

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The long term trauma and mental health as I have suffered from being the golden child at the age sixteen years old even before that I was dealing with situation that was more serious. I suffer from depression, suicidal thoughts where I ended up in the institution hospital being supervised for trying to kill myself three times before, also I suffered from PTSD from all that trauma that I went through with my mother and my grandmother for all these years I was being lied to by this person who was only using me for source of supply. I defended this person in public when everybody didn’t like her or hearing the things she was doing behind the scene I was blind by her love and that was my mistake as a man because you can’t help who you love. I disrespected myself so much to the point where it was more genuine on my side than it was on her. In the end she hurt me she hurt everybody els around her because she selfish I don’t deserve that nobody does Being the "golden child" in a dysfunctional or narcissistic family often involves a long-term emotional toll characterized by immense pressure to maintain an idealized image, leading to deep-seated anxiety and a struggle to form an independent identity. This role, while appearing favored, often forces the child to suppress their own emotions and desires to meet unrealistic parental demands, resulting in chronic self-esteem issues and emotional exhaustion. The Long-Term Impact of Being the Golden Child The "golden child" role frequently leads to complex psychological challenges in adulthood: Conditional Self-Worth: Many golden children connect their value solely to their achievements and parental approval, struggling to feel good about themselves when they are not meeting external expectations. Persistent Anxiety and Perfectionism: The constant pressure to be perfect and excel in all areas can lead to high-stress levels, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, OCD, and a debilitating fear of failure. Identity and Independence Struggles: Because their identity is so intertwined with their parents' dreams, adult golden children often feel lost or disconnected from their true selves and may struggle with independent decision-making. Relationship and Boundary Issues: Growing up where love was conditional can lead to insecure or avoidant attachment styles in adult relationships. They may struggle to set boundaries, often putting others' needs before their own in a constant fight for approval. Internal Emptiness and Burnout: Maintaining a fake persona over years often leads to long-term emotional exhaustion, burnout, and a sense of inner emptiness

The long term trauma and mental health as I have suffered from being the golden child at the age sixteen years old even before that I was dealing with situation that was more serious. I suffer from depression, suicidal thoughts where I ended up in the institution hospital being supervised for trying to kill myself three times before, also I suffered from PTSD from all that trauma that I went through with my mother and my grandmother for all these years I was being lied to by this person who was only using me for source of supply. I defended this person in public when everybody didn’t like her or hearing the things she was doing behind the scene I was blind by her love and that was my mistake as a man because you can’t help who you love. I disrespected myself so much to the point where it was more genuine on my side than it was on her. In the end she hurt me she hurt everybody els around her because she selfish I don’t deserve that nobody does&nbsp; Being the "golden child" in a dysfunctional or narcissistic family often involves a long-term emotional toll characterized by immense pressure to maintain an idealized image, leading to deep-seated anxiety and a struggle to form an independent identity. This role, while appearing favored, often forces the child to suppress their own emotions and desires to meet unrealistic parental demands, resulting in chronic self-esteem issues and emotional exhaustion.The Long-Term Impact of Being the Golden ChildThe "golden child" role frequently leads to complex psychological challenges in adulthood:<ul>
<li>
Conditional Self-Worth: Many golden children connect their value solely to their achievements and parental approval, struggling to feel good about themselves when they are not meeting external expectations.</li>
<li>
Persistent Anxiety and Perfectionism: The constant pressure to be perfect and excel in all areas can lead to high-stress levels, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, OCD, and a debilitating fear of failure.</li>
<li>
Identity and Independence Struggles: Because their identity is so intertwined with their parents' dreams, adult golden children often feel lost or disconnected from their true selves and may struggle with independent decision-making.</li>
<li>
Relationship and Boundary Issues: Growing up where love was conditional can lead to insecure or avoidant attachment styles in adult relationships. They may struggle to set boundaries, often putting others' needs before their own in a constant fight for approval.</li>
<li>
Internal Emptiness and Burnout: Maintaining a fake persona over years often leads to long-term emotional exhaustion, burnout, and a sense of inner emptiness</li>
</ul>

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