I recently suffered a miscarriage.

As a matter of fact, I am still suffering from it, in the middle of it to be exact. 

So this episode is pretty timely. This episode was recorded while I was still pregnant, or maybe not. Its hard to say. 

But what would have shattered me to pieces months ago, actually brought me into a whole new understanding of faith, trust and resilience. 

Months ago, just mere months, I would have let this devastation completely take over my life. I would have been unable to get out of bed, riddled with anxiety and depression, I would have asked my husband to stay home from work or to take the kids to our in-laws because I was incapable of taking care of them . I could only focus on myself, only felt what I was feeling. Wallowing in my despair. Mad, angry, confused, frustrated, my faith shaken to the core. 

Until now everything had been going swimmingly! Excited, elated, supported, faithful. 

But this time; this time was different. 

Because of the work I have been doing on myself, the relationship I have been building with God my creator and ultimate provider, because of the faith I am building, the confidence I am creating and the transformation that is taking over, this did NOT take me down. 

This did not break me. I am not fragile and weak, I am strong and resilient. 

This did not mean I smiled, put on my mascara and kept moving. This meant that I rested when I needed, in the Lord. I cried when I needed, I was angry and frustrated when I felt it, but I gave everything to God and God alone. 

I found gratitude, I found love, I found peace in this situation. 

I found a brand new gratitude for my amazing marriage that grew stronger that day. 

A renewed and deeper love for my husband who is my supporter, my rock, my person. 

I saw my kids as bigger blessings, strong, healthy and happy. 

I found a refreshed joy in motherhood and in my life. 

My resilience is stronger than ever because of the WORK that I do in my life every single day by the Lord's hands. 

What is your resilience factor? Do you crumble, as I once did, the moment something cracked?

Are you overtaken by doubt, anxiety, depression and fear, the moment a fault is found in the foundation?

It's not fun to live on a a see saw- up and down and up and down. 

So how can we build resilience that is everlasting, that is pure, that is unshakeable?

Listen now to this weeks episode where I talk about what your resilient factor is and how to build a resilience so strong, that you transform your entire world from fear to faith.