If you're in a tough spot and thinking about going back to the bottle, don't. It's not worth it. I'm talking to the rational side of you, not the side of you that wants to run away. Lot's happening right now. It's temporary. Don't do permanent damage during a temporary grief cycle. Yes you can! if you've already gone there, you have the power to stop. You can find a clean break and build something. Be strong in this time.