For my birthday a friend gave me an astrological reading.
During that conversation, I was told that I have the gift of processing but can sometimes get stuck in doing that.
She offered me the metaphor of a room with two doors. The one in front which represents the future is closed, the one behind me which is not quite closed, represents the past.
The "not quite closed," is indicative of my tendency to keep working, processing, and holding on to the past. However, if I would just open the door in front of me, the wind created by that change would close the door behind me.
The more actively I pursue what is in front of me, the better I can surrender and release the things behind me.
Of course, I think about how this relates to chronic pain and illness. It is difficult to let go of who I once was: what I looked like, who I was in the world, what I was capable of doing. It has also been hard to imagine a future for myself... What is next? What can be next?
Perhaps we should think in smaller terms. Maybe what's next is: listening to a whole podcast series, reading the complete works of an author, finish a whole coloring book.
This just has to be the next thing. Next week I'll text a friend. I'll menu plan instead of eating based on what's in the fridge when I'm desperately hungry.
How can I show up for myself so I can release myself from the things that have hooked me about the past?
Book giveaways: I'll be having a drawing to give away two books. One is "My Pain Body Solution," by Michael J Murray, (https://greenleafbookgroup.com/titles/my-pain-body-solution) the other is "Walking on Pins and Needles," by Arlene Faulk (https://www.bookcellarinc.com/walking-pins-and-needles).
Here's how to enter:
1) Leave me a rating or review on whatever audio podcast platform you listen to.
2) Let me know you've done that by emailing me at
[email protected] or leaving me a comment about it on YouTube so that you can be entered in to the drawing. If you have a preference about which book you'd like, let me know in your comment or email.
3) If you'd like to be entered multiple times you can also post about one (or both of the books) and tag me on Instagram @theAnnetteLeonard including tag of either @arlenefaulk or #mypainbodysolution, for up to two additional entries.
The drawing is planned for 6/30 for Arlene Faulk's book and 7/5 for Mike Murray's