I've been out for three weeks because of pneumonia. It took antibiotics and a course of prednisone to resolve things.

Whether it's the plans that get disrupted, or these broadcasts, there are big set backs. I found myself in the kitchen winded from trying to grate cheese. When I'm once again in a cycle of thrush from the antibiotics and unable to get out of this illness-begets-illness cycle it starts to feel like an ouroboros. The snake that eats its tail.

It's a self-perpetuating, self-consuming system. It isn't just my body that's impacted, it is also my mind and my spirit. When I am living with fever dreams, when I am confined, when I have to cancel a few things I've been looking forward to and feel even more "useless" than usual. My mind turns to dark places. Any illusions of "progress" are washed away.

Its likely that this all comes back to control and the frustrating realization about how little we actually have.

I'm Annette Leonard, speaker, coach, and sick person who believes that my illnesses do not define me. If health is the absence of disease and wellness is the presence of wholeness, then no matter what your disease status, we can work toward your wellness, your wholeness.

Whether or not you are ever "healthy" on paper, you can be well. Join me and others on the path back to wholeness at AnnetteLeonard.com. Whether you are a person experiencing chronic illness or are someone who loves or serves people with chronic illness I have great resources here on this channel or on my website for you.