The meeting starts off with Jean-Pierre, or whatever the older guy's name is, saying that he is present at the beginning in a supervisory role and to guide the other two social workers: Conrad and Karl, into becoming excellent councillors. I suggest that Karl emote. I say that he is like a very intercative AI. 

A new member joined us. His name is Ruben, a Mexican with a beard and a (self proclaimed) funny voice. He is an alcoholic and hits his wife mostly when inebriated. 

Tonight, I really delve into the addiciton and pleasure of violence. I feel that Karl is too tame. He is not bringing the guys back to specific moments. I do. I really push these guys. I tap into my violent demons. I let them speak. Karl remarks at the end how impressed he is with my honesty. It is the demon's honesty.

Aebner shares what fucks him up in an argument, a tone, a comment, how he feels disrespected, his face goes dark as he's transported and then he remarks on how the beginning of the fight was so silly that he can laugh about it here during group. I suggest that the true strength comes in being able to find the funny in that moment of anger. He looks at me skeptically. 

All I think is how nice it would be to be the superhero. Rise above. Save everyone. 

But I am the montster they run from. 

There is so much funny material here. I end with a killer joke.  Listen to the end to understand the punchline that is the title of this episode.