I am like fire and tar, burnt out and stuck to the pavement. I’m leftover and left out and everything in between. But you see, there’s a strange culture here, a community, an entire ecosystem where the world thrives around me, and I wither away. I was planted here, but my roots don’t grow. My […]

Like a dog returns to his vomit… Oh, that hits home. The Book of Proverbs hits the head on the nail when it comes to defining fools. And I often feel like my picture needs to be plastered all over it. For the most part, I tend to err on the side of discernment. I […]

All of this is much like rubbing my palm into broken glass or the time I did the splits during dance class and a perplexingly long sliver of wood that had popped itself up from the floor entered my bare leg. I received stitches for that one. The pain was measurable but this one, not […]

I am most relieved when I lose sight of it. When my heart is face up and my mind has wandered off to play with butterflies. That niggling in the back of my brain, uppermost veterbra beneath the skull, where all thoughts comingle and threaten to ruin me. I am chosen. I know this. But […]

There are tiny slivers of this time that I try to pick up and pocket, but you know me. I have no balance anymore. I fall over and away from my intended desire, and there I am, left with nothing but lint. How is it we’re here already? My daughter will be thirteen this summer, […]

I’ve been playing at this for so long, I sometimes don’t know the sound of my own voice. I’ve become the thing I think that I used to hate. The woman sandwiched so perfectly into life that you’d never think to pop her out of it, put her in brand new territory. Have I gotten […]

I am most peaceful when I seek Jesus, and in seeking Jesus, I can clearly see the “middleness” of things.  There’s a point from which you walk one way or you walk another, and suddenly you’re up in arms against and far from the middle. When I read Scripture, I don’t see a vast expanse […]

My Google Docs file looks a bit like my brain: an unwieldy mess of words and half thoughts that are crammed into digital airspace nobody is bothered by but me. It truly is killing me slowly. I’m writing a novel, and I no longer want to be writing this novel. I love the idea, the […]

I think it all boils down to these little minds of ours. How we can see the world with big eyes or ones that are appropriately small. How we can either play God’s game or ours. Because in the end, the latter choice is the choice to lose. And it’s hard living in a world […]

There’s a possibility I’m doing this all wrong. I like results, definite proof in my hand. I want to tell people about Jesus and then see Jesus in their faces. But if you live long enough, you know that’s not how this works. Life is a long game. Relationships are the hardened stones in the […]