I am changing this format of distribution instead of a daily account of this (which... yeah even I was bored) it will be a weekly episode and here and there some peppered thoughts and or things that were on my mind or troubling me. I have been looking for a psychologist and or someone to talk with but have been unsuccessful in all my attempts. I even thought about joining another men's group that the "leader" said he would connect me with someone that could help even if I wasn't considering joining the group. Well, turns out that's not the case because he just ignores me. I think this just shows is character as a man but I digress from this point. I also had a chance to talk with one of my old military buddies that just got back into music production. One of his most recent songs was talking about feeling lonely but not being alone. We got on the topics of depression and other things we been dealing with. Also, kind of processed some thoughts I had on doing things for other people and not for myself.