Hey guys, welcome back to the pitvol drifting podcast a lot has happened since I last shared. I finished my ayahuasca (Yage) experience, I came back from Colombia after 2 weeks, broke up with my partner, I probably spent already about 4k on personal development programs/coaches (when I SHOULD BE SAVING!), Lost a ton of muscle/weight and working to get back into it, going primarily plant based for my diet (but need high quality meats once in a while for my blood type),

I made it! I made it successfully to Colombia and wow what an amazing experience so far! My Spanish isn't paying off too much but it comes in handy to have broken one word conversations to people. These masks don't help anything that's for sure! I don't know if it's soft spoken conversations or they really can't understand me. Either way I'm getting by on what i learned. Also, might i say that Medellín has these most beautiful women i have ever seen. I have not met/seen a woman that does not "do it" for me. Old, young, my age all are just delightful. And something that brings me great joy is seeing these beautiful figures, and my attempts to be engaging in my broken spanish have been humorous to myself.

Well it's 3 days before my trip to Colombia and in the wonderful fashion that is Sean Daly I have not packed ANYTHING not even attempted. So, today i packed for the first time. I got these wonderful packing cubes.... Added all my things to the packing cubes annnnnnnnddddd nothing fit into my 40L bag. Oh crap... What did I learn today that compression packing cubes are GARBAGE (could just be the kind of packing cubes that i got as well). Thank you Jeff Bezos for making Amazon returns so flipping simple! Also! How in the heck do people travel for 10 - 12 years on a US passport?!?! Some countries in the EU have 180 day cycles with 90 days being allowed in the country with restrictions on money you have available to you as well. Someone explain to me world travel nomad laws of visas and wandering!?! Anyways, I'm done procrastinating time for bed I'll pick this up in the morning "_"

I felt called to share these truths. I have been fasting for the last 3 days on just tea alone. Listening to these plants and what they had to share. I was having prophetic dreams (I never dream or at least remember them) and I share some of those, I also talk about somethings that came up and realizations that I had during these 3 days. At first, I thought that I was not getting anything from the plants but they gave me what I needed not what I wanted.

What is luck really? If the world is a perception of what you see what is luck really? In a video I watched recently of video Darren Brown convinced an entire town that a dog statue in the town is lucky. The rumor started with a simple question "have you heard of the lucky dog?". In the video, I thought it was going to be about the sheep mentality of people but really what I got was confirmation that the way we see world shapes it. What opportunities am I avoiding? What opportunities am I not aware of? What opportunities have I missed? It's easy to look back on things and see how they all fall into place but in that moment none of these things actually connect. We just connect the pieces ourselves so that it has meaning for us.

I'm not a podcaster. A very meta concept that I was having with myself about these conversations with myself. How is it possible that I can grow and expand from my beliefs and concepts if I am only talking to myself or is it better to have this conversation with others to raise my own awareness.

I am all the over place it's been over a week since I talked to myself or talked to all of you and in doing so I lack confidence and I'm all over the place in this recording. Let's face it through I was all over the place anyways 😂

I recently watched a free documentary on youtube called "finding joe" basically a number of authors and screenwriters talk about Joseph Campbell's hero journey model that is found in every human and is part of every story we love, and movie we enjoy. After and during this documentary it got me thinking about my own hero journeys and how I came be where I am today. Talking to myself in a phone documenting this path I am on for my own sanity and hopefully the sanity of someone else that might be experiencing a similar situation or struggling with something. Furthermore, I talk about identifying as a provider and that if I can not provide financial support I feel worthless and unvalued. I didn't talk about it in this episode but I found this great app called habitshare on both iOS and Android play store. Anyways, I have been using it for 2 days now and helps me to keep track of some new habits I am developing also added bonus is you can share your habits with a friend so you can hold yourself more accountable and they can too the best part of all of this!?! It's free!

I am changing this format of distribution instead of a daily account of this (which... yeah even I was bored) it will be a weekly episode and here and there some peppered thoughts and or things that were on my mind or troubling me. I have been looking for a psychologist and or someone to talk with but have been unsuccessful in all my attempts. I even thought about joining another men's group that the "leader" said he would connect me with someone that could help even if I wasn't considering joining the group. Well, turns out that's not the case because he just ignores me. I think this just shows is character as a man but I digress from this point. I also had a chance to talk with one of my old military buddies that just got back into music production. One of his most recent songs was talking about feeling lonely but not being alone. We got on the topics of depression and other things we been dealing with. Also, kind of processed some thoughts I had on doing things for other people and not for myself.