Finding Bryan

Whoa! Who would have thought a new episode of the Finding Bryan Podcast would come out it has only been way-way-way too long. Lots have happened and much to come so here’s to a new start.

Yep you are right it has been a very long time and I am sorry. It is because of no fault other than my own and I have been battling the need to record and start getting my thoughts out to the ethos yet again. IT has finally happened I recorded after a very long wait. So I talk mostly about me not being where I want to be as of yet. I seem to of hit this invisible wall where I am being pressed from my responsibilities and what I want to do. I talk about my frustrations in Not finding clients for the Social Media business. I feel that I am close to the top of this hill I am climbing but I don’t know where the top is but I believe it will be better once I break through this barrier that is holding me back.

There are times that you can actually feel yourself being pushed into a particular direction. Even though you are scared to death about that change. How do I embrace that push and go the direction I want to go and stop fighting the current of change and excellence

Life can be a great ride and then something happens and a crossroads comes up. You see your mighty lofty goal ahead, but what direction do you go? I talk about the challenges I am facing with working for a commodity.

Not much in the way of podcasting. Not much in the way of blogging. I have been busy looking at who I am and I am seeing that I have learned a lesson form the Rebel and that is relax. Breathe yeah you have to keep the yahoos safe. You have to teach them right from wrong. This can be a challenge especially when you throw the Chill pill into the mix. Yet, life seems so much easier once you learn to relax and don’t hold on to the rains so much.

Well I am finally getting a new episode of Finding Bryan out it has been a tough fight to pull myslef out of the mire I was in but I have been succeeding by taking one step at a time. It is good to be able to get a new episode out after almost 4 months of inactivity.

My thoughts as to the Rebel improving and things getting better were wrong.  We now have an arrest under our belt. The Rebel decided to have a Possession of a controlled substance  and a charge of possession of paraphernalia, Possession of Alcohol, and contributing to the delinquency of a minor.  So, He gets to sit in Jail for four days till his bond hearing. His mother and I are nervous wrecks over this whole deal and we are trying to figure out why he is so hell bent on doing stupid, and we cant help but blame his friends. Why? Well One of the rebel’s friends has benn around him more than once when he got into serious trouble, and you can tell when the Rebel is hanging aroudn this kid because his attitude changes and sluffs off his responsibilities. Chores stop being done, leaves when he feels like it, and Grades fall through the floor.

So two of the accomplices are banned from being at my house again, and this is to keep from having the authorities knocking on my door. I really hope The wife and I are goign to be able to convince him to move out of this state. Cause This neck of the woods the school district doesn’t care who goes to school. The rebel has 5 friends that are not in school and should be. At lease on is around the 5th grade. Sad truly sad. At the same time It is also sad that there are soo many parents in this area that dont care about their kids. Even more sad.

The goals Ii have laid out are piling up and I am starting to feel the crunch. I have things in a row but I jst need to find a way to jump but that little chain called fear keeps holding me back. I am trying to fight through it and I will succeed. I just have to face that fear of rejection and carry on. I am prepared for the no I just don’t like hearing it. 

I recorded an episode back in February and apparently it became lost to the shuffle of what is become of work. but it was discovered and presented to you now. Better late than never right?

Christmas has come the wrapping paper is put away the tree is torn down and packed up. We have all taken the time to celebrate the coming of the new year and it is here.

Time to look at the Goals set for last year and set ones up for this year.

Then we also talk about the Rebel without a clue, and his recent new endevor to add more grey hair to the wife and I’s heads. Also Enjoy the Deep voice due to my illness.