Firestorm

I should be writing more,

we should be living more,

instead we’re dying more,

no if & buts eithers or ors,

was reminded of that from the ashes that,

landed on me from a firestorm,

in Napa California,

where I watched it all burn,

people,

lost everything,

well I mean,

people lost all their things,

but at least,

they got to keep their lives,

so I guess that’s something,

that’s kinda alright, right?

Are you alright?

I’m only asking because something doesn’t feel right,

something feels a bit off,

but I don’t know exactly what it is,

can’t quite place this feeling,

not sure how to describe it,

it feels like,

we should be living more,

but it seems like,

instead of living more we’re dying more,

ABC 156 ∆dieting,

instead of rioting,

you want to know what it feels like,

to be an American,

it feels like being at an All-You-Can-Eat buffet,

but not wanting to eat a thing,

because the stomach’s tight from anxiety,

but feels overly stuffed like a Thanksgiving turkey,

stuffed,

but starving,

it’s tough,

& alarming,

haven’t got an appetite because nothing seems to sit right,

& I’m tired all the time,

I have low energy,

even though every night is a restless night I never sleep tight,

can I ask you a personal question,

while I’ve got your undivided attention?

What do you do when even too much isn’t enough,

& you feel like a genius zombie,

& you’re so fed up with all this stuff that you just want to give up,

shave your head take your meds & join the Army,

inside walking undead,

instead of outside running alive,

feeling like a space ship in outer space,

just looking for signs of other life,

feeling like a satellite,

that’s out of orbit,

ABC 157 ∆the feeling is so enormous,

that you just can’t ignore it,

been around this world countless times exploring,

don’t know where else to go or what else there is to explore,

see I’ve seen it all done it all and have it all already,

yet still I feel like there’s got to be something more,

feels like I should be writing more,

we should be living more,

instead we’re dying more,

no if & buts eithers or ors,

was reminded of that from the ashes that,

landed on me from a firestorm,

in Napa California,

where I watched it all burn,

people,

lost everything,

well I mean,

people lost all their things,

but at least,

they got to keep their lives,

so I guess that’s something,

that’s kinda alright, right?

Are you alright?

∆ LaLux ∆

Napa, California