First Forty

Go for a walk-and-talk with Joe at work; he lets me in on what’s going on in his life; we latch on to each other; Denise, the office manager, drives a black-and-white Datsun Z; cool lady.

Dream about Beth; Grant and I head back downtown; bike shop closed; Wax Trax records; 50s-motif McDonalds on LaSalle; feel secure there; drop-by Sessie’s house; looking through more stupid car ads; see movie.

Today nothing happened.

Go roller skating with Eisuke, Kiyoko, and Yuji; eat at Jalapeno’s first; Yumi complains she’s forgotten how to skate, wearing knee-pads; accidentally call Yuji “toothpick”, in Japanese.

Meggin gets the Young Investigator grant; idea to go canoeing this summer; the meaning of “love” in Philosophy; go run in the rain; write letters; listen to “Evening at Stu’s” tape; life with Meggin v. lone hero?

Fastening on corner-guards; sweeping out the Anaheim Convention Center; re-assigned to La Cienega Park in Beverly Hills; shocked when Kevin tells me my wages; meet Joe, and am intimidated by him; buy answering machine.

Happy Valentine’s Day; actually, nothing much happened; made some decent money at work; Jill E comes in with her parents; scary!

Today we got our reservation to Walt Disney World.

Shinya back from the East Coast; he loved Boston; “I Love NY” t-shirts; Shinya in a funk over Muria’s continued relationship with Marcel.

The big day; session with Ray Charland; non-ability to name what I want out of life; he always asks about sex; can’t “see” my future; leave his office, a mess; sign-up for meditation; irritable conversation with Meggin; read her letter earlier.