I'm feeling super flowy so i think i'm going to go back to talking about my own interpretation of flow as possibly an equivalent to the experience of mania now before you jump to conclusions about what i just said i have a lot of explaining to do and it's not really a linear correlation it's not exactly the same but i feel like there's a lot of congruence ease and i was listening again to a talk by Steven Kotler I think I said that right this time and everything he talks about when he's talking about flow if I would replace the word mania it's a similar experience to me so Steven Kotler has never been in an experience of mania so he wouldn't necessarily have the same realization that it's a very similar state and if it's not a similar state at least has a lot of similar underlying principles and properties so he hasn't been in the manic state to know when he's listening to himself that he's talking about something when he's talking about flow he's really also talking about the experience of mania he talks about how flow is a spectrum he talks about how there's five neurotransmitters or neural chemicals that are our part of the flow state that we make inside our brains and bodies and and he said sometimes we have partial flow states where some of the neuro chemicals or neurotransmitters of flow some of the five are present but not all of them so I'm thinking to myself that mania is somewhere on that spectrum and it could even be an experience that is hyper flow like even beyond the regular flow experience or it could be maybe having some of those neurotransmitters but not all of them and of course there would have to be some kind of studies to actually confirm the neurobiology and neurophysiology and neural electricity of people that are in mania but good luck finding them to study them because when they're in that state of flow they're just flowing with the universe and not really one to want to be subjects of study and usually a person is treated after the fact after the mania turns into something else and person is then intervened with in some way and stephen also talks about how his flow state that he experienced healed him of Lyme's disease that he was debilitated for by for three years and in my mind if you think flow States heal it's possible that manic States heal and a lot of people that go into these states have maybe a history of trauma or they went traveling or they can't sleep or some people maybe fasted all these things can put a person into that manic state and in my mind if I'm going to keep with the theme that mania is equivalent to flow in a lot of ways it's possible that the manic state is a healing state in my experience I had some trauma happen before I experienced mania a couple of months before and I was having a hard time with it and then all of a sudden my being went into a state of complete ecstasy and wonderment for over a month and if I think about how I was basically struggling with in my psyche all of a sudden my psyche was blown apart my ego disappeared and I was just in a state of childlike wonder play creativity flow for over a month that could possibly have been a healing mechanism that could possibly have been almost like I was in so much pain and suffering that my my psyche went into that state in order to sort of overcompensate for the suffering I've had for a number of months and that's just a theory but to me I'm just comparing how his flow state healed him and I think that there's some healing that happens in the manic state and again I'm not glorifying mania but at the same time there's a lot of positivity in it and it usually doesn't it usually doesn't end up positive in the end people usually crash in some way and there's a number of thoughts about why that might be so for one a person's not used to operating without one's ego and in mania it's not operate it's not operating a person's not operating from their regular consciousness where they're stuck in the repetitive story that keeps him grounded in daily reality and Jamie wheel talks about this as you know the inner critic and and the sort of going towards pleasure and avoiding pain mechanism that were usually operating in and he talks about kind of stepping outside of that and mania is definitely stepping outside of that and so what persons not used to operating in that mode at least we haven't operated that way since childhood and another reason too is that the world is not structured based on the principles that one experiences in say a manic flow state so eventually a person kind of bumps into incongruencies in reality enough to bring them kind of back now also a person's are not practiced in actually experiencing this flow state of consciousness which is a lack of personal ego for a lot of it and actually one of the things I thought of was there's a lot of it that's lack of personal ego but the trouble is that when interacting with people that one actually already knows one does have to kind of bring the ego back in to interact with those people because it's that's how we have been interacting with those people our entire life and that gets kind of garbled in with the flow stayed you know so he Steven Kotler talks about surfing and how he went surfing and that was his flow state while he knew how to surf so had he not been able to surf he probably wouldn't have gotten up to surf and he wouldn't have gotten into a flow state and it would have had no healing effect now a person that first goes into the manic consciousness they've never experienced it so it's like trying to ride a 100-foot wave on a surfboard when you've never done it before it's going to be very difficult and you know another thing too as with the ego getting confused in with the flow situation by interacting with you know say family and friends that one already knows that's like trying to ride the 100-foot wave while getting sprayed in the face with a fire hose it's just really difficult and confusing you're trying to even ride this wave but yet there's this other stream of water hitting you in the face so I feel that this manic consciousness actually takes practice to ride that wave and be in flow with that wave and not be sprayed in the face by a fire hose at the same time and then even if somebody even if somebody is in manic consciousness and they're kind of writing that 100-foot wave if you don't know how to ride the wave even if you get up on the wave you're probably going to crash at the bottom and that's sort of the equivalent to depression in a way so person if they're in the flow state riding the wave on a surfboard literally but they get sprayed in the face with a hose they're probably going to crash at the bottom of the wave and even though they were in flow they're going to have some kind of injury at the bottom so people so those sort of disturbances in the manic consciousness flow state which are like disturbances from society which society is a disturbance it's not designed for flow at all and then we wonder then we're sitting here thinking how do i get into flow when society is not designed for flow at all and they talk about transient hypo-frontality in the flow state the whole society is based on the prefrontal cortex and thinking and and cognition and deciding and and our own personal stories that we repeat in our head and as soon as we get into that story making consciousness we are thinking in terms of past present and future and as soon as we're thinking in terms of past present future we're not in the moment and if we're not in the moment we're not going to be in flow so to me a lot of the thinking about flow is actually perhaps preventing flow because it's thinking itself it's cognition itself that is actually in the way of flow and even all the scientific studies in the world about flow are still cognition about flow and they talk about how the state of flow is actually to be in a pre cognitive state sort of before the thinking and they think basically that we make decisions before we're consciously aware of the decision but in the flow there's nobody there to make a decision the one that makes the decision is an ego thinking that it's making a decision choosing between one abstraction and another the actual happening of the thing is not an abstraction that would be like saying that you know I could hold up my birth certificate and say hey I was born this proves i was born in this piece of paper but i'm sitting right here which proves i was born i'm i'm here i'm a physical human being so in a way to say that we need thought choosing between something making a decision i do we need decision to move most of our movements are not a decision if I'm speaking I'm not actually thinking I'm deciding to move my mouth in this way it's just happening and then we have this tiny little bit of our brain devoted to this supposed decision making process choosing between two thoughts and we think that the choosing between the two thoughts is what actually make something happen but it's actually the thing happens first and then the thoughts come and the choosing process after and then we think that we actually chose something and it's actually an it's like an optical illusion and it's probably one that we need because if all of a sudden we think oh we don't have free will then we would go a little bit batty but the thing is that when we realize that we don't need free will or something they're choosing to move ninety-nine point nine nine percent of our information and and stuff happening is just happening beyond conscious choice and we have this conscious choice that isn't even our own conscious choice it's programmed into us through our education in our family and it's passed down through generations and the memes are passed down through generations and then we think we're actually choosing something but we're just choosing between one illusion and another so if we're thinking about something like our past then we think oh that's bad I don't want to think that we choose something else we're thinking about the past which isn't happening now so we're not actually in the present moment so we're actually creating this time in our psyche which doesn't actually exist and then we spent all this time kind of wondering about it and stuff and then craving it not being there and then doing things by thinking about them in order for them not to be there but that same thinking is the same as the thinking that you don't want so trying to do anything about any of it is actually just strengthening it so if I'm even to think I really want to have a flow experience I need more flow how am I going to get flow the I the ego is the barrier to flow so the I ego trying to seek flow is actually avoiding flow by seeking it so it's really it's really messed up actually but once you actually see how it works if you really consider how that whole mechanism works and once you see how it works you just kind of kind of just watch it in a detached way and Jamie will talked about instead of having our awareness taken up by that sort of story mechanism of past present future about our own little history and problems and pleasure seeking and desire it's sort of a switchboard monitoring our whole organism or a dashboard he said and he didn't elaborate on that in the talk that I was watching but in a way it would be like oh like just being aware of my posture being aware of my thoughts but not trying to think my way out of the thoughts or think different thoughts or choose different thoughts and what they're talking about to and I don't know if they've studied J Krishnamurti but it's a lot of the same sort of thing in a way Krishnamurti talks a lot about thought itself as the problem not thinking better thoughts not trying to become better psychologically because all the psychological thoughts are just the same so if I think a thought he says the thinker is the thought and it took me a long time to really grasp that even though my thinking process has changed over the years to one of linear association of past present future my own personal story too i would say thoughts that arise that are more to do with the perception in the moment or you know something I need to do something I need to do isn't mixed in with oh this happened yesterday and I am this and I am that and oh I forgot my keys it's silent silent silent and nothing nothing nothing oh I forgot my keys so it just it still happens that's the thing it doesn't need to be going on all the time all this stuff in the prefrontal cortex in order for the brain to work efficiently it something else happens and it's it's it's similar but it's still very different and they talk about in flow the prefrontal cortex actually pretty much shuts down and they said they were surprised by this because we think that more brain activity actually equates to more potential or more human potential and and they're finding oh it actually shuts off and that's the part where there's the inner critic and all these things that inner critic is actually in the way of flow and the prefrontal cortex is kind of everything we've gotten from society all the programming all the conditioning all this inner critic stuff and it has nothing to do with the exact moment now so it's kind of an avoidance strategy and I talked in another video about recently I've made the correlation between mania and learning and I really think this inner critic circular thinking about not much of anything actually blocks learning how can we learn when that stuff is going on we're not really learning anything and society thinks learning is actually memorizing stuff that's not learning at all and the more we memorize it actually kind of clogs up our brain and we're actually designed to learn through play and I feel that mania is synonymous with play and creativity and flow and energy and I think this thinking process that we call like cognition is actually zapping our energy and and I had this thought too because in the in their research that they're doing for the flow Genome Project they're kind of interested in things that help bring someone in to flow in terms of physical stuff so they talked about multiple G's of gravity and something about spending people around and something else and I'm just wondering if I have a curiosity about something to do with one's own personal center of gravity so these they talk about the extreme elite adventure sport athletes and how they're able to get in flow and they've used that idea as a way to hopefully get other people into flow by making it safe for them to get their body into those extreme experiences and it's interesting because these people who these people who are the extreme adventure sport athletes their body is kind of like one with gravity in a way meaning that their center of gravity is sort of in line with the universe's gravity so if somebody is jumping out of a plane or surfing they have to know exactly how to rotate their body and move about their own center of gravity in order to do that so they've become masters of their own center of gravity and that's just my own thought and when we think of and when we think about it the people who are in those moments they're not going to be thinking about what's for dinner tomorrow when they're writing a 100-foot wave and that's the whole ego goes away and they feel flow so they need to they go about putting their body in those extreme situations in order to get into flow that takes a lot a lot a lot a lot of training in order to learn how to ride a 100-foot wave in order to do that and their body the wave is actually mapped their body the gravity of all the waves that they've ridden and their body is actually perfectly adapted to that activity which then gives them the flow experience now do we all have to be able to ride 100 foot waves in order to get our egos to shut up I don't think so and it's interesting because I actually feel that a person probably each person in a way has like a unique center of gravity everybody's would be a little bit different how they carry themselves how they walk how they talk their body shape their muscle capacity their their body composition so everybody's is a little bit different and now a child kind of has a naturally perfect center of gravity as they're growing but then as we go about life and we're contorted by the rules of society by sitting in a desk for six hours a day for 20 years or more and all these different things that are against the nature of the center of gravity of human beings so if a person developed naturally whatever that means we probably don't even know what that means because society doesn't allow for that I could imagine their center of gravity would be they would carry themselves in their own unique perfect way that was perfectly designed for how they were born and and they would they would be in their flow if they developed naturally I feel like we're born in flow we're not born with egos thinking about what happened last week that is a societal thing so for me to all this hoop law is like well why do we why don't we question why we we train kids out of flow in the first place like it's like why do we do that and I think mania is one of those compensation mechanisms it's like an elastic band you know we're held down from our natural progression of our center of gravity throughout life and then all of a sudden something releases and we spring into this manic consciousness not because it's some kind of mental illness it's actually our natural state I just feels weird and it's hard to navigate and it's hard to operate because we were conditioned out of being that way but I think with practice we can actually learn how to master that energy we're designed to be so full of energy and not wasting it through of our own ego thought processes and then wondering why we're not in flow when we're thinking about last year last year is not flow the universe is now and so if our center of gravity in my little theory that I'm making up right now was exactly how we are and I talked about in a previous video how manic being in the manic state is sort of like being in your adult child state that you would be in the energy if you would have never been moved from the natural trajectory of your of your growth as your natural growth as yourself now the ego thing things happen blocked your energy blocks your energy blocks or energy blocks your energy so something happens the ego structure sort of falls apart and you spring into mania like whoa and there's and there's all this energy because energy is not being wasted and all those things that were conditioned into doing internally that waste all our energy and when the manic consciousness energy comes in we're not wasting the energy in that way so it feels super energetic but to me that's actually our natural state I'm saying with this whole center of gravity thing as different things happen throughout life you know education sitting in a desk you know not being allowed to be who you are your family saying you should be this in life when you feel you're called to do this and you're like operating it not really as height of the level as you are designed to be as your own unique self you know maximizing the complexity of the universe which is mathematically supposed to happen but we we defy the mathematics of the universe by putting all these false constructs on a person so their tents they're thinking they're deciding if you're just you what is there to decide about like oh should I be me or should I be me you're just you're just happening to be yourself so I feel mad at consciousness is actually the flow of the universe it's a correction it's a universal correction mechanism it shows us how we are naturally and that's the thing they talk about two they talk about oh we're stronger and flow we're more coordinated were more this one more that in mania I'm stronger I'm taller I'm more flexible I more a

gile all of those things and it's just a click it's not oh I have to practice so it's a natural state that we have within ourselves and it's more natural than what we think of as our daily life as natural because those are conditioned habits and programs we've just been programmed like like computers and we're more like reflex reaction mechanisms than actually seeing and living in the moment so another thing at the center of gravity this is something I made up today and it goes along with my thought before about how the manic state is like our adult child version of ourselves as if it had never been contorted or adjusted by the rules of society like that you should do this you should do that you should be this you your parents expectations studying like crap mostly as part of education in the formative years and so are all these things all these things that we turn away from or that make us contract they actually contort us they they're stored in our muscles and over time we get hunched and and we start walking lopsided and all of a sudden we're older and like this and we don't even know it and to me what I'm saying is that is a messed up center of gravity of oneself and it's like all the different constellations of memories and thoughts and things are actually stored in our physiology and when the mania energy comes in it blasts all that apart and all of a sudden a person's like I'm taller I'm an inch taller because I'm no longer holding myself and and contracting my muscles and compressing the discs in my spine which messes up the energy signals going up through the spinal column and the whole body energy field and and our center of gravity is different in the field of gravity so if our center of gravity is all tense and contorted in the field of gravity to me right there that if you compare the analogy of how a person who has perfected their physiology in there there the whole structure to effortlessly ride a hundred foot wave now think about daily life is like a million foot wave like this is our actual life now why don't we riding that wave in flow why don't to me a person could be in flow kind of all the time for one struck society is not structured for that for two I don't think our bodies are structured for that so if they're using like neurophysiology neural electricity neuroanatomy and then you know the structure of the body and the force of gravity on the body as sort of like well this is going to get a person in flow we're always in the field of gravity and we have a center of gravity and if we're not in our bodies the way they're actually designed to be there's books on this and I have some because I was i did some sessions of Rolfing which is a structural integration process and it's like a 10 session 10 sessions of treatment that actually you know sort of unlock your body so you can move again and I remember I went for one session because I was like I don't want to commit to ten sessions I just do like a general one session and I I could reach behind my arms like this and like grab this way but I couldn't do it this way at all like I couldn't even get close to touching was probably like this far away so I said you know fix my shoulder or fix whatever's going on here and after that one session I can't do it quite as well but I can touch and before I couldn't even get close so I was like okay I'm going to do the 10 sessions and I think it was really important and I'll probably like 10 sessions are supposed to be good enough for life but i'll probably go up for go in for a tune up at some point but again that's sort of like correcting my center of gravity it's correcting a lot more than just that but what I'm trying to illustrate here is the way that they're really curious about how people in extreme sports basically that accentuate the field of gravity or accentuate the body's experience of the field of gravity get people in flow and I'm trying to compare that to how in daily life if we're lumped over sacks of it's going to be a lot harder to get in flow because our center of gravity within the field of gravity is not the way it was designed to be and and you can look at say indigenous tribes in the world where things haven't really been altered as much you know those different I'm not sure about culture is very well but they'll have the same body shape because they're all adapted perfectly to hunting and gathering and and their tribal activities and their communal so they share everything and they don't take more than they need and and they all have these beautiful bodies that are perfectly adapted to what the way they live and now our bodies are adapted to our numbed out junk food eating TV watching pleasure-seeking pain avoiding as Jamie wheel talks about and you know that's not a secret we're perfectly adapted to that and then from that sack of point of view we say why can't I get in flow and you can still get in flow as a sack of but it's just more difficult and what I'm trying to illustrate I don't think is necessary to have like a perfect center of gravity per se I'm just curious if that would help like I've also taken a course called body awakening method and the lady who taught the course she taught this like exercises you do on a chair to strengthen your psoas muscle and she also talks about how you're supposed to walk and how you're supposed to keep your feet straight when you're standing not like this not like this and not like walking like this or like this people think this is normal and I actually went to her talk probably like six or seven years ago and it was like an introductory talk and she told me about the feed straight thing and she told everyone and I actually walked like this one was like this and this one was like this and I'd walk like this and then kind of like dragged this foot and ever since that talk i was like wow I'm going to correct that I'm going to walk with my feet straight and it didn't take long and I and then I started to walk with my feet straight and she explained how if you're not walking properly that's putting pressure on your knees and then that's putting pressure on your hips and all of a sudden you're 45 and you need a hip replacement you're wondering why well we're not utilizing our bodies the way they're actually designed to be and she taught other tips too so between the body awakening method the soul as exercise and also the role thing I've done a fair share of and being consciously aware of my posture done a fair share of like structural integration and so for me it's not just about putting somebody in some kind of gyrating machine to see if they can get in a flow state like what we could put everybody in a gyrating machine right now and what's what good is that going to do you can't really get anything done during that that experience you know you might to me it's more if you're doing that it's more like oh I had a flow experience and then you add that to your little memory of thoughts for your ego mind to think of and dwell upon part of the flow thing is not to dwell upon it it's not really an experience it's you know Krishnamurti talks about how it's not an experience because the experiencer is the ego and if the experiencer is there abstracting then it's not that and if it's not so as soon as the experiencer comes back in and starts thinking about that that just happened you now made that flow a part of the system of thought as sort of oh I want that again which is pleasure and desire which actually gets in the way of it happening again so it's more it happens and like move on and that happens with people in mania to they're like well that was so wonderful and amazing and so it's such a great feeling but it's not really it's not really about personal pleasure until we make it about that in retrospect which is thinking about it and I think that's another secret of this flow thing too that they may or may not be aware of is that flow is not personal it's a state where the ego is absent so that means none of the egos shenanigans can really be accomplished while in that state it's that much maybe some could but ego shenanigans stuff is for personal gain and that flow state is sort of being one with the universe where there's no such thing as personal gain so the people in those extreme athletes they get away with it because they're kind of like okay I'm going to sort of check out of society and do my own thing i'm outside of society which society blocks flow for sure and i'm just going to do my own thing which it's sort of its personally wonderful to be in that flow but it's not it's not really going to do any harm to anybody right so they can kind of just mind their own business right now if a person wants to use flow for their own personal gain or some kind of evil thing is is that evil is thought evil is the ego and now the evil ego wants to get into flow which is a negation of the ego so in my mind one of the ways to get into flow if you want to think about how to is to move towards what it is that you would like to do or participate with that has nothing to do with your own personal gain because that state is not a state of personal game and I feel like if a person has that state and uses it for personal gain in the flow and then turns it into like this memory of like oh that was good i need to get that flow again to get that personal gain because maybe the first time they use it for personal gain it's going to block it from ever happening again because it's actually a gift from the universe to be one with the universe it's not really a gift it's our natural state and it's not our natural state to be these egos competing with each other killing each other comparing eat with each other and all these things that are just totally acceptable in society in society which is not flow and then anyways yeah and that happens in mania where people feel like oh this is all about me and and it can it's hard to not get to that place because it feels like everything is one everything's the same everything's one process there is no separation so at some point if the ego kind of sneaks in a bit it thinks while that means it's all about me but it's just this really wonderful oneness experience and it's not an experience because oneness is the way it is it's our ego mind that thinks it's different that blogs that it interprets things that turn things into concepts and abstractions the feeling of hunger is not an abstraction I don't have to think I am hungry to know that I'm hungry but since we always think I'm hungry when we're hungry we think we have to think I'm hungry to know that we're hungry and to actually go get some food but it's not really that way and it's the same with any other thought and it could be seen as really obvious in that we happen to get a lot of things done even though we're thinking about something else so just in that it kind of proves that we don't need to think about stuff in order to do it because when we're doing something we're usually thinking about something else that has nothing to do with it so just a matter of seeing well this has nothing to do with anything that I'm doing and maybe it'll just go away and then lo and behold were in flow most of the time so that's the comparison of the center of gravity thought that I have about our poor contorted bodies and I recently came across this thing called trauma release experience or something I camera tre and I I saw it before but I never really looked into it and so today I actually tried it for the first time this really weird thing if you google it and you see the videos people start kind of shaking and stuff and I was laying there shaking and I listened to an interview by Mary Shriver she talked about how trauma is a memory problem and how this stress sort of releases it from our hippocampus and I did read from dr. Daniel Siegel that during traumatic experiences our hippocampus shuts down and we don't really encode the memories of what's happening properly and and so those memories are sort of scattered in the brain and they can be recalled and they lack echforic sensation which means they lack the feeling that they're coming from the so then we feel like they're happening now and so when Mary shriver's head trauma has a memory problem that made me realize that's kind of a dr. Daniel Siegel saying and I did talk about in another video my own little theory about how if the hippocampus is being is shut shut down and the brains not sort of putting the memories where they're supposed to go well where does that energy go and I think it's still encoded in the heart and the heart has memory too we already know that from people with heart transplants I think some of it gets encoded in the heart and the hearts more about like electromagnetism and patterns being stored and I think maybe if it's blocked from this hippocampus putting in the brain properly it just gets stored throughout our entire body you know like if we're being traumatized maybe we're not even aware we don't even like say we're unconscious or something our heart is still beating and it's beating with fear and that is electro magnetism and it's it's it's reap a turning every cell in our entire body with that energy and so I think that this trauma release something whatever it's called is supposed to release it from the body and i'll probably be experimenting with trying it a few more times because because everybody has some stuff stored and what i'm thinking too is that releasing it from my body is releasing it from the cells and the muscles and everything which is going to do that whole changing my center of gravity to you know me carrying myself as i meant to be carried which means my center of gravity in my body in my pattern is moving through the pattern of the entire reality the entire universe you know the quantum hologram it's moving through as it as it was meant to not as things happened and and thoughts and memories got stored in me and and contorted my structure so I find that really interesting about that and so I've tried rule thing I've tried the body awakening method stuff both are awesome and now I'm going to be trying this trauma release exercise thing and and that's the thing that Steven Kotler talked about was and Jamie wheel as well as that we go into things through like the psychology and stuff and try and like talk it out and everything and they say that the precognition stuff is much more powerful so talk therapies like cognition cognitive stuff the precognition stuff they think is more powerful and so they're saying flow is like a pre cognitive state and to me that just means stuff is happening without thought going on and abstracting and conceptualizing about it is just really just happening and so they're saying by going through like the portal of like the body sort of a lot more can be accomplished and this TRE seems to be that too and actually the Lady Mary Shriver talked about that she said it you can't really talk it out it's it's stored in the body and so that's how it's apparently valuable so i bought the tre app and i'm going to be giving it a try and so in the morning i do something I learned from body awakening method called bedroom yoga and then I do a little exercise for myself as muscle and lately I've been jumping on my trampoline my mini trampoline and that gets the lymphatic system moving as well that is naturally like a body moving in gravity experience and probably there's a little bit of extra g-force when I'm bouncing on the trampoline and now we'll be doing this TRE thing and and seeing how that goes in terms of in terms of all this structural integration stuff and for me it's actually I I feel like mice I can go into that other state that manic state I've gone into it a few times over the last five years and I feel like say um like my ego structures and maybe there's transient hypo-frontality in mania and then I i loosen up and I lighten up and my center of gravity changes well in my mind if I can and then when I come back to regular consciousness I'm a little bit more contorted and everything so if I on a daily basis I'm sort of exercising my center of gravity in a way and maybe moving it slightly towards how it would be in mania I feel that would be part of embodying one's mania because one can get to the point where one's body is maybe close to that bodily expression in the flow state so they say you know we get stronger we get more agile and all these things in the flow state well we can get ourselves to the point where we are kind of that way and a lot of people go to the gym and they do they're like bicep curls and their sit-ups and everything and and something I learned in Rolfing and as well in body awakening method is a lot of what we do at the gym actually compresses and crushes our skeleton so if we're doing all these ab crunches we're actually um compressing the discs of the spine because we're making this really tight we're doing all these things to kind of make us like this and some people still look wonderfully beautiful in all muscular and stuff but there are certain muscles we don't strengthen it's actually more important to be stronger beside the rib cage like from the bottom of the ribs to the top of the hips on the sides to actually hold up our ribcage we're actually supposed to hold ourselves up with that sort of cummerbund type muscle now if we have really tight abs we're actually doing the opposite and we're contracting ourself whereas if we have strong side muscles we can hold ourselves up and if we're not holding ourselves up with that those muscles and our head slightly forward we're actually slowly going to be compressing we're going to be you know getting hunched over basically but that doesn't need to happen if we're holding ourselves up with those muscles standing with our feet straight blah blah blah find the lightworkers institute if you want to know more about that or read books on roll thing it's very interesting so to go with my little theory about one's perfect center of gravity of their body actually being in alignment with gravity so so the body's weight is actually carried by the joints and the skeleton and not the muscles because if our body weight is supported by our muscles then we're actually tensing up and that would change our structure and our center of gravity and part of my little theory with this is one of if I was to say one of the ways to get into flow it would be make sure you're in like a hundred percent perfect alignment to be in flow all the time in daily life and even if you think about it too like a madden your your perfect aligned self completely comfortable in your structure the way you carry yourself throughout life is going to be a lot different the pattern that's recognized to yourself and others as you it's going to be more elegant or more expressive happier and that is going to change your whole energy field and it's also going to change how people respond to you it's going to change your whole the whole trajectory of your life and now if you are in that pattern where you're very comfortable and within your own skin you would naturally think that you would be in a little bit more flow like you wouldn't be thinking I'm so this and I'm so that if you're just naturally the structure of who you're meant to be and to go with that I had this other little thought and theory that are negative thinking patterns it's actually electro magnetism in our brain it changes our brain that changes our neural plasticity it changes everything it actually gets us stuck in this prefrontal cortex and and gets in the way of this transient hypo-frontality in my mind it doesn't have to be transient hypo-frontality it should be actually transient frontality we should only have that bit of our brain turned on when we actually need it and this completely makes sense we're wondering how can we get five minutes of flow or how can we get an hour of flow my question is why aren't we in flow all the time and in this little thinking petty little ego consciousness just when that needs to turn on for convenience so I actually think that these thoughts and everything contribute to contorting the structure as well as changing one's energy field and the energy field is the pattern it's the hologram of who we are it's our information and I talked about the adjacent light body now we're not going to be our adjacent light bar version of ourselves if we're this material structure of thinking inner critic judging choosing version of ourselves and we've been conditioned to be that way unfortunately so we're not actually free we're prisoners of our own minds and and it's kind of sad but I actually think that if one has this prefrontal cortex stuff going on that changes our energy field in a way that negate that negates flow it can't happen that actually has to turn off which is like you know the fuzz screen on a TV like if we always had that playing in our minds and our heads that's kind of what the ego consciousness is it's all this noise and and and it's like they think oh we turn off the prefrontal cortex uh-oh what's going to happen it's like oh turns out we're in flow how is that possible well because the ego is just a bunch of noise it's not really saying anything that's actually real or true it's like a big hallucination it's if it's saying something that's not happening right in this moment or have anything to do with this moment then it's a hallucination and that's so-called normal and then people that go into mania decouple from that and and then are in extreme ecstasy feel free often run naked down the street because they feel like they've just been reborn and in a society that's not designed for someone to be that way it's very difficult for one to stay in that state and then a lot of people get really mad and stuff at some point but it's almost like it's almost like having to die to come back to this egocentric world and and I really feel that the flow state and the manic state and that extra energy like we think we need to think to to do stuff but it actually gets in the way of the energy that we naturally have we didn't have to think to do stuff when we were young children and again that world centricity and that's the thing in mania is a lot of us we feel very worldcentric for a portion of it and maybe that's the difference because in a flow state a person is kind of like doing their own thing for their own self a little bit like 0 2 i'm in flow and i'm getting lots of work done for me whereas in mania actually think it's a step beyond there's this extra extra extra energy and a person really wants to share and help the world and and that's what happens when the ego consciousness is completely blown away because we realize it's all one and we're just wanting to help the world not because we're thinking oh we want to help the world it's just we see that's the only thing to do there's nothing else to do and so I feel if a person is to really flow it's a matter of finding ones cause and that could almost be when I was talking about how the surfer has like a body perfectly adapted for riding that wave and they've they've taken hours and hours and hours to do that well how are we perfectly adapted without even spending a second to think about it and what would we do what would we do if there was no time there's no time left it's only right now that's it and Krishnamurti talks about psychological time and that's basically the ego thinking about itself and how it's not real and as soon as the ego thinks about itself it creates psychological time which prevents a person from being in the now which blocks flow so thinking about oneself is actually dis-ease we're not at ease with ourselves so we're thinking about ourselves which the thinking about the self the thinking is the self it's one thing and it's no amount of thinking with that self is going to allow a person to get into flow and it's interesting because that flow dojo is kind of designed to get a person to be so scared because like they're they're sort of doing things with their body that would get them killed if they weren't in a safe contraption now why do we need to be scared to the point of our pants in order to get our ego mind to turn off if we really saw that the ego mind itself is fear it actually creates all of this crap it's like as dangerous as jumping out of a plane that thinking about oneself which is an illusion there's no self there there's just this happening stuff you can't separate each thing that happens each gesture from that thing that is happening there's no separate thing if I move my hand I don't have to think move my hand in order to think in order for that to happen but since there's something going on here we think it actually has some kind of correlation but it has no correlation whatsoever and it's actually blocking the flow and being in this scared ego self-reflexive thinking state is creating all that fear which is creating all this toxic neuro chemicals and and bio chemicals in the body which is actually poisoning us so this process is actually killing us that's actually as dangerous as like a poisonous snake biting us twenty-four seven but we don't see that so it's more like a leech where we don't actually feel like it's on our skin it numbs us out it dulls us out we don't actually see anything that's happening we only see what our mind is saying how can we flow if we only see what our mind is saying which is something that happened ten years ago that's not happening now it's not now so to me it's not really this like big mystery I'm curious about well I've thought about it before it's like how would I design my life as a maniac because the thing is that it's difficult to actually be that way and I feel like at this point now I'm more of a where and that sort of X traumatic energy comes in and I kind of like have to block it so instead of instead of trying to get in flow I actually need to block flow I actually need to be like okay I'm just gonna calm like be calm for a while go to sleep because all this extra energies come in and be like whoa like I'm riding the wave of the universe and daily life what could be better i don't need to go on a freaking wave this is the most beautiful thing ever then what else could be more beautiful there's like cute little insects and spiders outside there's flowers and there's other people and I don't need a wave the fact we need a waiver to drop out of a plane to see it is absolutely ridiculous

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