only 1 of 3 hours recorded 

- Livestream without ANY Sound

***UPDATE: So indeed, yes, the audio cuts off on the video. Shame. That's what i get for trying to let it be done all fancy. Im going to switch out the video for the audio now which you can also hear (though it's only 1 of the 3 hours we did, on www.Anchor.fm/magick).

Again, in large part due to the theft of my first and crucial ritual diary that charts my journey from TM, to Druidry and Wicca and into hermeticism from 1994-1996 I am sharing bits that were fortunately copied into the 2007 draft outline of an autobiography I wrote when I was just starting to get really sick:

A brief note on that...

...By 2009, I weighed over 400 lbs (27 Stone/190 kilos) and the doctors had no clue what was wrong despite every effort it was just like my body could not process, absorb food and produce any energy at all. Of course, most blamed me for the apparently improbable rapid decline in health. In 2011, of course, I did an elimination diet and after a year of eating gluten, dairy and soy free I was a fit 140 pounds, or 60 kilos according to my scale at the time. More importantly, I felt like awesome. I ate food and felt surges of energy never known before in my life....

Hence my never finishing the autobio; since I regained my health and life and decided to live rather than focus on the past.

So that's why I wrote out a hundred plus pages of an autobiography at the urging of old friend since I was 13, Jonathan. We had a Vancouver home for a couple years with a hidden full temple set up you could only access or know about by stepping into a massive wardrobe with a false back. Sometimes my sister also came over to do ritual work, before living with us for a time when she was in between boyfriends. The video of she and I singing Goodbye Horses in a car on YouTube is from those happy days before you was lured to Montreal by an old fellow adept from Temple Tehuti who has gained continued renown as Pat Zalewski's right hand man.

What went down behind my back ended a long friendship and destroyed my relationship to my sister in was never recovered. This is not because of the nature of any groups, orders, churches, lodges; this is because of the mendacity that humans choose to use to batter and destroy one another, in any context.

But just as lies can destroy all that we love, just so the truth can set us free.

If you are in or considering being in any sort of group, church, order, lodge, whatever, I highly recommend this Esoteric Order Survival guide written by an old student and friend who is now a high ranking leader in Cicero's order: He also did an episode of VH Frater BT's Esoterinerd Podcast: 

Esoteric Orders Survival Guide

http://eric-v-sisco.blogspot.com/p/esoteric-orders-survival-guide.html

Esoterinerd Podcast

http://edward-reib.com/vhfraterbt/

Fallen Adept Podcast *NEW*

www.Anchor.fm/magick

Why I had to start a new one I explain if you follow the link above but it of course is connected to the cybercrimes and doxing that has led to so much strife for me and my mom and sister.

-- the full three or four hour audio will be available soon, til then here is the livestream clip just for you.

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