I've worked on a dozen essays and episodes in which to add this clip, including in the unfinished episode about my other grandfather's death, who was also military and was also given full military honors. I've tried to find an eloquent way to talk about how hard it is to untangle my sliver of a cultural past from the all consuming monster of whiteness and nationalism. I've also wanted to dig deeper into why I went so hard into antifascism and why it is so personal to me, but honestly what I caught on tape right after finishing our first episode (in which I had made fun of bagpipes and immediately very quietly started to spiral) is a lot by itself. So maybe it is best to just post the raw audio.

It's a very deep kind of pain when an ancestral part of who you are is used to justify genocide, especially when your own feelings about that part of you is complicated (as it often is with family). This is in solidarity with my anti-zionist Jewish friends right now. On a positive note, Jimmy Marr is dead now. You are not missed. Rest in Piss. #freepalestine

Edit: Was told by a friend that I should add the context that Jimmy Marr was a well known holocaust denier and white nationalist who went by "Genocide Jimmy" and drove around a truck with antisemitic slogans written on it.

Remastered by A. Campbell Payne. Originally aired 9/3/17

CW: Suicide & police brutality

Spoke with Aneka from the SoJust Collective about centering POC, the founding fathers, police brutality, educating allies, being tired, passing the mic, no plaforming/active platforming, confronting your racist family, the allyship industrial complex, rewarding white mediocrity, the Red Cross, Rechts Gegen Rechts, difficulties with fundraising, and seriously, ruin Christmas.

You can donate to Aneka for their time by sending money to their venmo @pettymcbetty . If you counted more instances of bad allyship than I did, use your number, and if you counted fewer, use mine (14).

Notes:

- The controversy was in fact about Deady Hall at the University of Oregon, named after Judge Matthew Deady, co-author of the Oregon State Constitution and one of the most influential supporters of Oregon’s Exclusion Laws. A good guest viewpoint written on the subject here: uwire.com/2016/02/14/guest-vie…dy-hall-must-change/

-For the uninitiated, "FTP" stands for Fuck The Police

- There was concern expressed for me, but I'm not in that relationship anymore and that story is very old. The point of it is not the individualization of the issue but the systemic stresses

- Instead of donating to the Red Cross, you can go here to find how to get money directly to those who need it for Hurricane Harvey relief: www.colorlines.com/articles/how-do…s-color-houston

Referenced:

CAHOOTS mobile crisis intervention: whitebirdclinic.org/cahoots/

Rechts Gegen Rechts: www.youtube.com/watch?v=KvjIYl_Nlao

Update 11/7/20: When this episode aired it was why I was rejected from Channel Zero Network. The reason given was because we should be talking about being "accomplices, not allies" and I was given a copy of the zine of the same name to read. However, we do talk about the Ally Industrial Complex in the episode and both Aneka and I disagreed with their response that this episode contributes to that mindset. However, you can read a copy of the zine here and decide for yourself: archive.org/details/Accomplices…lyIndustrialComplex

Wow! A. Campbell Payne is a listener and a professional audio engineer and offered to revamp some of the episodes, which is so awesome. This one in particular had major sound quality issues so here it is after they took a swing at it. Especially important to hear from trans people right now too. Thank you so much A.! Originally aired 7/9/17

Wow, this was a trip to find in the archives. Our first ever recording. A lot of it needs citations so listen critically, but there is a lot of good content (especially from CImms) that didn't make it into the first official episode so I'm glad to have found it. It's been a long four years and I don't feel the same way about everything any more, but this also sets up my next episode about Judas, militarism, and guilt very nicely. Feels good to step back and remember where this project came from and reflect on everything at the start of this harvest season. Transcript is partially done, got an auto transcript and it needs to be edited but it's a start: https://friendlyanarchism.medium.com/s1e0-how-it-started-3-23-17-transcript-f471b25f0988

Transcript: Hi all, so, life keeps happening and I've been having a hard time finding time to work on this show, but just so you know there is another episode in the works. This one is an essay like the first episode of this season and it's of a personal nature and I just want to make sure I get it right so I'm spending some extra time on it. Thank you to everyone who has been supporting me! Thank you to my patrons. And also just so you know, one of the listeners of the show started a discord so if that's something that you're interested in please join, it was really cool that they created that space. So that's a new thing and I've posted the link to it on the soundcloud. Alright, just checking in and I will see you again soon.

Help me out at www.patreon.com/friendlyanarchism and join the Discord at discord.gg/5msYfvZkdx thank you!

Don't have spoons for full episodes right now, but just messing around with other forms of expression in the meantime! This is a round I did with myself while stuck in quarantine a while ago. Listened to it again today and was like, what the heck, might as well put it out there. It's a reimagining of an old song from my childhood to try to express what it feels like to disassociate. Enjoy!

A fan made a new discord: discord.gg/mPs8Peah

Just for funsies. Based on "Come All Ye Coal Miners" by Sarah Ogan Gunning, a turn of the 20th century union organizer.

Come all pandemic workers wherever you may be

And listen to a story that I'll relate to thee

My name is nothin' extree but the truth to you I'll tell

I am a covid worker too, I'm sure l wish you well

Right now it is the most dangerous work in our land today

With plenty of dirty slavin' labor and very little pay

Oh worker won't you wake up and open your eyes and see

What the dirty capitalist system is doin' to you and me

They’ll take our very lives, they take our children's lives

Take fathers away from children and husbands away from wives

Oh worker, won't you organize wherever you may be

And make this a land of freedom for workers like you and me

Dear worker, they will slave you 'til you can't work no more

And what'll you get for your living but a dollar in a company store

A broken-down room to live in, no heat or working locks

You have to pay the landlord rent, your payin' never stops

I am a pandemic worker, I'm sure l wish you well

Let's sink this capitalist system in the darkest pits of hell

"Let’s do something that they can’t even imagine."

Part 2 of my conversation with my friend Candice who is an economist, communist, mother, and all around rad lady. We spoke about everyday antifascism, being a disabled and limited radical activist, taking care of each other, and more.

Transcript: https://friendlyanarchism.medium.com/s2e3-everyday-antifascism-celebrity-and-making-something-new-with-candice-part-2-transcript-ecfcf650f20a

Notes:

-I just want to note that the inclusion of liberals, while a part of a popular front strategy, is playing with fire. I much prefer radicalizing/working with people who are apolitical

-I should have mentioned fascist creep in the form of "gender critical" dialogue. Transphobia is a major source of reactionary rightwing garbage right now

-I was a little hard on Portland, it's a big place with a big scene and so obviously not everyone involved has all the ego about it. A couple really good antifascist/activist resources coming out of that area are the podcasts "It Did Happen Here" and "Rural Roots Rising"

-Many Q-anoners are in fact very dangerous, I had in mind one particular memory

-Greasy hair does not actually protect you from Covid-19.

Music by Kylo Ren www.kyloren.bandcamp.com/

Support my work here! ko-fi.com/friendlyanarchism

or www.patreon.com/friendlyanarchism

Referenced:

Global birth rate: https://ourworldindata.org/grapher/crude-birth-rate?stackMode=absolute®ion=World

List of further info on fascist creep:

Population and ecofascism

-https://wearyourvoicemag.com/humans-are-not-the-virus-eco-fascist/

-https://www.teenvogue.com/story/what-is-ecofascism-explainer

Antisemitism

-https://caityjohnstone.medium.com/on-antisemitism-critical-thinking-and-conspiracy-theories-db37e7b24fee

-https://www.haaretz.com/us-news/.premium-how-the-gop-is-energizing-and-entrenching-antisemitism-in-america-1.9560897

Organic Food/Farming

-https://theconversation.com/the-roots-of-organic-farming-lie-in-fascism-81448

-https://gen.medium.com/nazi-hippies-when-the-new-age-and-far-right-overlap-d1a6ddcd7be4

-http://daanis.ca/2020/09/28/the-racist-history-of-ag-about-big-ag-with-dr-sarah-taber/

Class reductionism

-https://abeautifulresistance.org/site/2020/11/7/class-reductionism-and-white-identity-politics-in-a-post-trump-era

-https://time.com/5864705/climate-change-black-lives-matter/

Candice is an economist, housing services specialist, communist, and mom who is brilliant. We spoke about Covid-19, how at-risk people are pushed to the front lines, shitty bosses, the injustice system, the roots of fascism, how important it is to listen to marginalized people, and much more.

Transcript: https://friendlyanarchism.medium.com/transcript-s2e2-pandemic-karens-and-systemic-fascism-with-candice-part-1-beac0c841177

Notes:

-Candice is in a league of her own and her experience is not legal advice.

- According to the wikipedia timeline of the Covid-19 outbreak: "A September 2020 review noted "The possibility that the COVID-19 infection had already spread to Europe at the end of last year is now indicated by abundant, even if partially circumstantial, evidence", including pneumonia case numbers and radiology in France and Italy in November and December"

-RIP David Graeber :(

Music by Kylo Ren https://kyloren.bandcamp.com/

Support my work here! https://ko-fi.com/friendlyanarchism

or https://www.patreon.com/friendlyanarchism

Referenced:

https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/david-graeber-to-save-the-world-we-re-going-to-have-to-stop-working

https://universe.byu.edu/2021/01/22/native-and-indigenous-people-are-disproportionately-affected-by-covid-19/

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2019/01/190123112330.htm

https://eji.org/issues/presumption-of-guilt/

https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2017/09/innocence-is-irrelevant/534171/

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2009/jul/22/henry-louis-gates-arrested-at-home

https://www.chicagotribune.com/opinion/commentary/ct-eric-garner-laws-felons-chokehold-perspec-1125-20141204-story.html

Happy new year!

Essay here: https://friendlyanarchism.medium.com/i-want-peace-on-earth-so-i-left-the-quakers-and-became-antifa-889d35aa6f7c

For more on Quakers and slavery: https://www.friendsjournal.org/slavery-in-the-quaker-world/

For an insurrectionary take on Quakers (including a really good indigenous history of William Penn): https://contagionpress.com/books/movement-for-no-society/