AA step one usually requires everyone to hit their "bottom." Its the circumstances that cause an addict or alcoholic to evaluate their situation recognize their problem and their illness and make a decision to seek help. These are some of the events that stood out for me which in turn lead me to find my bottom, in other words to say enough is enough.

The Road to Hell is Paved with Good Intentions. For me this was a vicious circle of events that lead me around and around never finding a solution to my addiction and my problems.

In this episode of my tale I share how I was beginning to see my powerlessness and manageability.

AA tradition states to speakers to tell what it was like, what happened and what it's like now. I've been doing that but feel maybe I've been telling it for too long. I questioned a mentor and he helped me see that the story will be told when it's told and to keep at it. Thank you.

In today's telling of what it was like I share a story of being held at gun point. I explain that what makes this story frightening is my reaction to the event.

This one you just gotta listen to, I don't have a short description.

The ongoing step one story of my descent into the hell realms.

My AA Story continues into high school and I use the behavior I witnessed in another to relate to the behavior described in the animal realm for humans. I also relate to my own period within the realm and my behaviors.

Episode 50, a cause for celebration! Today though I continue to simply share myself in an open down to earth manner cause I want everyone to see the real me. I believe that the real me is more inspiration than a dressed up me that just shows you my success and asks you to look up to me. Don't look up to me just look at me and see that if I can you can.

Habit becomes my character which in turn becomes my destiny and I have shared this before where I believe it all begins with the influences in my life. When I was a kid I had bad influences but after I made the decision to face step one and get clean and sober I turned to healthy influences and have ever since. I now have many healthy supporting habits and continue to grow more of them from the seeds I plant in myself everyday.