In this episode, I take an honest look at how I’ve used both porn and women as a way to avoid my emotions and find temporary relief. I explore the somatic experience of watching porn—how its predictability creates a sense of safety and belonging, yet reinforces patterns of isolation and dissociation.

Through an embodiment practice, I tune into my body before, during, and after watching porn, uncovering the sensations and unmet needs beneath the habit. I also examine how these same patterns show up in my relationships, where I’ve sought comfort instead of true connection.

Anonymous opens up about the untamed energy of adolescence and the deep longing for connection and desire during puberty. From navigating spontaneous surges of testosterone to seeking emotional mentorship and depth, we explore what happens when there’s no clear outlet for that intensity.

Anonymous shares their journey, from the duality of dominating in sports to craving submission in their personal life, and the profound experience of sacred submission. Together, we discuss the role of emotions, particularly anger, during those formative years and the transformative power of being truly seen and claimed.

In Episode 4 of Uncut, Seth Pearson and I dive into the complexities of connection and stimulation through video games. We explore how gaming became our primary way to connect—whether with ourselves, each other, or others—through constant stimulation. From solitary self-regulation to epic 16-player Halo tournaments, we reflect on how we've learned to navigate relationships in a world of endless stimulation. Can we, as men, truly connect without it? Tune in as we examine this question and explore the impact of our digital bonds.

Joseph and I talk about the lack of mentorship during puberty and how it shaped our understanding of intimacy and self. I share the awkward and misguided lesson my brother gave me about how to touch a woman’s clitoris—without any attunement or understanding. 

Joseph opens up about the overcoupling of ejaculation with safety during his teenage years and how those early habits of masturbation contributed to struggles with sex addiction. He bravely reveals his shame around using a torso sex toy and the journey to unshame these parts of himself.

We wrap up with an original song, "Don't Get Caught in Your Shame Spiral," a heartfelt invitation to release shame and love ourselves in this moment exactly as we are. 

In this episode of UNCUT: The Male Puberty Podcast, I sit down with Mo Wildman to explore the unspoken struggles and vulnerabilities of his puberty.

Mo takes us back to his first date at 13, where he tried to impress a girl by taking off his shirt—a moment that left him grappling with shame and insecurity. He reflects on how experiences like this shaped his understanding of masculinity, intimacy, and self-worth.

We also dive into a pivotal topic: porn. From his first encounters with friends to how it influenced his relationships and sense of connection, Mo offers an honest look at:

• The isolating effects of early exposure to porn.
• How porn overcouples emotional safety with dissociation.
• The impact of non-reciprocal relationships 

We wrap up with a powerful freestyle rap, "I'm Not Alone With This Shit," capturing the solidarity we all crave in these conversations.

In the premiere episode of UNCUT: The Male Puberty Podcast, Aaron Young takes us on a raw and heartfelt journey through his adolescence, shaped by the rigid doctrines of an evangelical upbringing.

Aaron shares vivid memories of being told to "hold his seed" and grappling with the shame and confusion around his changing body and desires. When he sought guidance from his pastor about navigating a crush during puberty, he was met with warnings about “playing with fire”—a message that left him feeling isolated and unsure of how to connect with himself or others.

But this episode isn’t just about struggle; it’s about healing. We end with Aaron’s poignant and empowering song, "Listen to Your Body", where he shares the advice he now gives his nephews—wisdom he wishes someone had shared with him during those formative years.