For fifteen years, Sanjay lived inside the fast-paced world of London’s financial trading, a high-performance identity built on precision, pressure, and emotional rationalization. In this episode, he reflects on how his career quietly shaped his sense of self, his emotional landscape, and the ways he learned to intellectualize rather than feel.

After previous psychedelic experiences in more confined, unsupported environments, Sanjay arrives at Eleusinia and encounters something profoundly different, a setting rooted in safety, spaciousness, and intentional care. Through this contrast, he explores how environment, support, and community transform not only the experience itself, but the depth of integration that follows. What emerges is a powerful shift: from striving to stillness, from identity to essence, from noise to peace. Sanjay shares how his perception of self has softened, how his inner world has become quieter, and how he now accesses a deeper, more stable sense of presence.

Not through performance, but through peace.