I find myself getting more and more frustrated every day.  I’m not sure if it is because of the weather, my not healing or just being cooped up in the house and not able to get out.  I have a good life and I don’t know if God is trying to teach me a lesson or what is happening.  Everything, but time is moving too slow.  It seems like the days drag by and then the nights and weekends fly by.  I am exhausted and deal with pain on a daily basis.  I don’t take anything for pain.  I take green lipped sea mussel for the inflammation which is caused by stress.  Why am I stressed?  There are so many reasons.  

·         Health

·         Weight

·         Financial

·         Living quarters

·         Family

·         Fear

·         Some days it’s like there is no hope

·         The situation of the world

·         Not being able to work on my podcast like I want to 

·         Expecting more 

·         Just life right now

I know a lot of people are frustrated with the way the country is turning right now.  We are about to experience a country none of us have had to every experience.  

It’s not going to matter about money or jobs.  People are being herded like sheep and I refuse to join the flock.  

I wait every day to hear that the Covid19 vaccine is now mandatory.  I wait every day for them to start implanting us with chips so they can monitor everyone more closely than they already do.  

I know I sound like I’m waiting for the zombie apocalypse, but it’s not that.  It losing control of our lives, it’s the end of days, it’s the rapture happening and me not being where my kids are.  

That is the bottom line I guess.  I want to live closer to my daughter and my son in law and my granddaughter.  I want to be able to see them more.  I feel cutoff from society some days although I don’t enjoy being around crowds or large gatherings, which really we are not having at this point.  This is another fine example of sheep being herded to the slaughter.

I am tired of worrying about everything.  I know my younger sister is the same way right now.  Everyone has their own problems and when you add in the situation of the economy and the government, it’s no wonder everyone is angry and upset with everything.  Depression is running rampant and people are going to start taking their own lives.  

I no longer like to watch television unless it is something that is total fantasy.  There are a few shows that are law enforcement that I enjoy watching, but I would rather play the games I enjoy on my phone that watch real life unfolding in front of us. 

The extreme cold weather that we have is the only reason that COVID19 is not the top story on the television right now.  Texas hasn’t seen weather like this in years.  

I’ve never had to worry about the electricity going out due to the winter weather.  We are starting to look at the whole generator thing more and more.  

We are about to pull out what is left of our camping gear to see if we have propane in case we need to heat the house with our camping stove due to power outages.  

I’m know this is probably a really depressing episode but it is feelings I have been dealing with for the last couple of days and I just needed to get it out there.  

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