Tonight I am the only person present until Aebner logs on half an hour into the session and moments before I finish with a point. 

It is awkward seeing him. His eyes are red, he appears drunk but it could be the fatigue from doing night shifts. Life is truly harsh for some. 

The stress and pressure make me more susceptible to violence- that is my takeaway for the night. 

Perhaps I will unburden myself from these shakles of consumption and a lifestyle that requires my soul to sustain it.