Fuck I am Only in my 30's

In this powerful episode, the host opens up about her late mother’s battle with chronic illnesses—including fibromyalgia, diabetes, gastroparesis, and rheumatoid arthritis—and the emotional complexity of their relationship. Through raw storytelling, she unpacks the realities of caregiving, the failures of the healthcare system, and the deep personal toll of watching a loved one suffer. This episode is a vulnerable look at generational trauma, grief, and what it means to carry both love and pain for the people who raised us.

⚠️ Content Warning: This episode contains discussions of terminal illness, medical trauma, death, and emotionally intense family dynamics. Listener discretion is advised.

What happens when the decision you thought would save your life nearly ends it?

In this powerful follow-up episode, I take you through the moments I flatlined on the operating table after weight loss surgery, the terrifying blackness that followed, and the chaotic blur of waking up days later in a foreign ICU — intubated, bleeding, and terrified I’d never make it home to my kids.

This is the story of how I quite literally came back to life — and what it’s been like to fight my way through recovery, complications, and emotional aftermath ever since.

It’s raw, it’s real, and if you’ve ever made a decision you thought was right — only to question everything after — this one’s for you.

Trigger warning: This episode includes descriptions of surgery, internal bleeding, medical trauma, and emotionally intense experiences.

A month ago, I died — and it changed everything. In the first episode of ‘Fuck, I'm Only in My 30s,’ I take you back to the beginning: the years of struggle with weight gain after a high-risk pregnancy, the endless attempts to reclaim my health, and the life-altering decision to undergo gastric sleeve surgery in Mexico. I’ll walk you through the hopes, the fears, and the moment I was wheeled into the operating room... when everything seemed fine—until it wasn’t. This is the story of the day my world flipped upside down. And trust me... It’s just getting started.

A month ago, I almost died — and it changed everything. In the first episode of ‘Fuck, I'm Only in My 30s,’ I take you back to the beginning: the years of struggle with weight gain after a high-risk pregnancy, the endless attempts to reclaim my health, and the life-altering decision to undergo gastric sleeve surgery in Mexico. I’ll walk you through the hopes, the fears, and the moment I was wheeled into the operating room... when everything seemed fine—until it wasn’t. This is the story of the day my world flipped upside down. And trust me... It’s just getting started.

One month ago, I died.
Flatlined. Heart stopped. Gone.
But I came back—with a voice I can’t ignore anymore.

This isn’t just a podcast. It’s the start of my second chance.
Welcome to “Fuck, I’m Only in My 30s.”