Some lives follow a straight line.

And then there are the lives that take every unexpected turn imaginable—and somehow turn all of it into something meaningful.

In “The Alchemy That Followed: Lessons from a Wild Life,” I sit down virtually with Dr. Jessica Fish for a conversation about the experiences that shaped her, the lessons that came afterward, and what it means to take everything life has handed you and turn it into something new.

We talk about growth, identity, change, the chapters of our lives that don’t make sense while we’re living them, and how sometimes the most important transformation happens after the chaos.

Jessica also shares her perspective as a doctor, the work she’s doing now, and the new virtual cohort she’s creating—bringing together her experience, knowledge, and everything she’s learned along the way.

This conversation is about more than professional accomplishments or having your shit figured out.

It’s about becoming.

About looking back at the wild parts of your life and realizing they weren’t separate from who you became—they helped create her.

Because sometimes the magic isn’t in what happened to us.

It’s in what we do with what happened next.

The alchemy that followed.

🎙️ “The Alchemy That Followed: Lessons from a Wild Life” — Dr. Jessica Fish | FUCK…Where Do We Start?

You can look at someone and have absolutely no fucking idea what their life has looked like behind closed doors.

In “If You Only Knew,” I sit down with Aly Black for one of those stories where every new layer makes you think, wait… WHAT?

We talk about a relationship that became far more complicated than anyone on the outside could have known, polyamory, marriage, a chaotic relationship with her ex-husband, court battles, and what it takes to eventually pick up the pieces and build something different.

But this episode isn’t just about the crazy shit that happened.

It’s about what happens after.

Learning boundaries. Rebuilding your life. Navigating relationships differently. Letting yourself trust again. Finding a new normal after spending so much time living in chaos.

And we talk about what it’s like when deeply personal parts of your life end up inside a courtroom—and how complicated it can be to tell your story when there are multiple sides, memories, and experiences involved.

Because sometimes we look at someone and think we know their story.

We see who they are today without knowing what it took to get there.

And sometimes all you can think is…

If you only knew.

🎙️ “If You Only Knew” — Aly Black | FUCK…Where Do We Start?

What happens when you stop trying to make yourself smaller for everybody else?

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Hailey and Mary for a conversation about being seen, stepping outside your comfort zone, grief, mental health, trauma, confidence, and figuring out who you are when you finally give yourself permission to take up space.

Hailey and I have known each other since we were little, but life took us in different directions before we reconnected years later. We talk about what it means to push yourself into uncomfortable situations, how grief and trauma change you, and what can happen when you decide to show up even when you’re scared.

Mary brings an entirely different perspective to the conversation. She’s spent her whole life literally standing out—being tall meant being noticed whether she wanted to be or not. We talk about being seen, confidence, learning to own the things that make you different, and what happens when you stop treating standing out like it’s something you need to apologize for.

And somewhere between all of those stories is something I think a lot of us are still learning:

You don’t have to shrink yourself to make other people comfortable.

You don’t have to wait until you’re completely healed to do something scary.

And you definitely don’t have to blend in just because standing out feels uncomfortable.

Sometimes you have to walk into the room exactly as you are and take up some fucking space.

🎙️ “Take Up Some Fucking Space” — FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🖤

Sometimes you can spend forever thinking about changing your life. And sometimes you just have to say:

Fuck it. Let’s go.

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Hunter for a conversation about mental health, addiction, jail, rehab, family, residential treatment, success, and what happens when life forces you onto a path you never thought you’d take.

Hunter opens up about addiction and the experiences that eventually changed the direction of his life. We talk about how easy it can be to hide what you’re going through, especially when everyone around you thinks you’re doing fine.

But Hunter is so much more than his history with addiction.

We talk about siblings growing up in the same family and somehow experiencing completely different childhoods. We talk about pain becoming fuel, success, breaking habits, family, the people who impact us, and lessons you sometimes have to learn the fucking hard way.

I also bring in my experience working in residential care and what that taught me about the human beings behind the behaviors, diagnoses, addictions, and decisions we tend to judge from the outside.

This isn’t a neat little before-and-after recovery story. It’s about being a complicated fucking human being. Making mistakes. Going down roads you never expected. Learning some shit. Changing some shit. And eventually deciding where you want to go from here.

Sometimes there’s no profound quote or perfect plan.
Sometimes it’s just:

Fuck it. Let’s go.

🎙️ “Fuck It! Let’s Go!” — FUCK…Where Do We Start?

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Cait for an incredibly vulnerable conversation about mental health, BPD, relationships, parenting, loneliness, and what it’s like trying to navigate life when you’re struggling internally.

Cait was nervous to come on the podcast and share her story—and that’s part of what makes this conversation so important.

She didn’t come on pretending to have everything figured out. She came on as herself.

We talk about how mental health can affect the way we communicate, love, parent, and see ourselves. We talk about feeling misunderstood, feeling alone even when you’re surrounded by people, and how difficult it can be to explain what’s happening inside your own head.

We also talk about relationships, the realities of parenting while you’re struggling yourself, asking for help, and why having honest conversations about mental health matters.

This episode isn’t about having the perfect answer or the perfect healing story.

It’s about being willing to tell the truth about where you are.

Because sometimes hearing another person say “I’ve felt that too” is exactly what somebody needs to feel a little less alone.

Cait showed up scared, vulnerable, and willing to share her story anyway—and I’m incredibly grateful she trusted me with it. 🖤

🎙️ Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? is now streaming.

If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out. You don’t have to wait until you’re at your breaking point to ask for support.

🖤 Mental health crisis or emotional distress: Call or text 988

🖤 Immediate danger: Call 911

There is something incredibly powerful about finally getting to tell your story in your own words.

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Ashley for a raw conversation about abuse, single motherhood, health struggles, trauma, survival, and what it actually looks like to keep going when life has handed you more than your fair share.

Ashley opens up about things she's experienced behind closed doors and the reality of carrying those experiences while still trying to show up as a mom, take care of herself, navigate her health, and figure out what healing looks like on the other side.

And this isn't a perfectly packaged healing story.

It's real.

We talk about the things that happen to us, how they continue affecting us long after the moment has passed, and what it means to finally give yourself permission to talk about them.

I also share some of my own experiences throughout this conversation, including what I've been learning about breathwork, slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and realizing there's a difference between simply functioning and actually being okay.

There are stories people carry for years because they're afraid of what will happen when they finally say them out loud.

This is Ashley's story.

In her words. On her terms.

And I'm grateful she trusted me with a space to tell it. 🖤

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Sometimes one family’s story can open your eyes to an entire world you knew nothing about.

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Jan for a conversation about family, health, parenting, mental health, PANS/PANDAS, neurodivergence, and healing the things that get passed from one generation to the next.

Jan opens up about her family’s health journey, her son’s autism diagnosis, navigating ADHD and neurodivergence, and what it’s like to become an advocate for your child while you’re still trying to understand everything yourself.

We also talk about generational trauma, healing your inner child, listening to your body, finding healing through nature, and some of the health experiences that have shaped the way Jan sees wellness today.

And she brings a unique perspective to all of it—not only as a parent who’s lived it, but through her experience as a nurse and coach helping others navigate their own lives.

This conversation reminded me how much we can learn when we stop assuming we understand someone else’s experience and actually sit down and listen.

There isn’t one perfect way to parent.

There isn’t one perfect way to heal.

And sometimes getting answers starts with being willing to keep asking questions.

Thank you, Jan, for trusting me with your family’s story and being willing to talk about the parts people don’t always see. 🖤

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What does it really mean to do the work?

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Vanessa, founder of Girls Do the Work, for one of those conversations that challenges the way you think about growth, boundaries, and living authentically.

We dive into the difference between being nice and being kind, setting boundaries with estranged family members, protecting your peace without carrying guilt, and what it really means to show up as your authentic self.

But Vanessa's impact doesn't stop there.

She's built a life centered around giving back—whether that's through her work, volunteering in her community, rescuing dogs, or using pet photography to help rescue animals find their forever homes. Her heart for both people and animals shines through in everything she does.

We also laugh, talk about parenting, learning to stop caring so much about everyone else's opinions, and why sometimes the healthiest thing you can do is simply be yourself.

This episode is a reminder that doing the work isn't about becoming perfect.

It's about becoming honest.

✨ Be sure to follow Vanessa and Girls Do the Work to keep up with her mission and the incredible work she's doing.

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What if the people who doubted you became the reason you refused to quit?

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Dr. Ruby Patterson—a space geologist whose story proves that your starting point has nothing to do with where you're capable of ending up.

Ruby was told she wasn't smart enough. Her own dad encouraged her to quit. She started college in remedial math, but instead of letting those voices define her, she turned them into fuel.

Today, she's earned her PhD, specialized in lunar geology, worked with NASA, self-funded an entire scientific expedition to Iceland, and built her own career on her own terms.

But this conversation isn't just about science.

We talk about resilience, self-belief, taking risks, relationships, meeting her boyfriend at Burning Man, choosing an unconventional path, and what it really takes to chase a dream that most people don't understand.

One of my favorite moments? I have to admit... I invited "Ruby" onto the podcast and didn't even realize she was Dr. Ruby Patterson until we started recording. 😂 To me, she was just Ruby—and I think that says everything about the kind of person she is. She never led with her accomplishments; she led with curiosity, humility, and an incredible story.

If you've ever felt behind, doubted yourself, or had someone tell you that your dreams were unrealistic, this episode is for you.

Sometimes the best success stories begin with someone saying, "You can't."

🚀 Follow Dr. Ruby Patterson:
📲 @rubythespacegeologist

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Some stories aren't just meant to be heard—they're meant to create change.

In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Brook for one of the most powerful conversations we've had yet.

We talk about navigating the justice system, parenting alongside addiction, the realities of custody battles, and the heartbreaking ways children can get lost in systems that are supposed to protect them.

Brook shares her own journey of resilience, including losing over 100 pounds to prioritize her health and be the mom her daughter deserves. But more than anything, she's using her voice to advocate for children and families who often go unheard.

This conversation is honest, emotional, and at times frustrating—but it's also filled with hope, strength, and the belief that speaking up can make a difference.

If you've ever been affected by addiction, custody issues, family court, or you've wondered how we can better protect our kids, this episode is one you won't want to miss.

🎙️ Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? is now streaming on Spotify.