I never felt anger towards my abuser for some reason. My parents felt anger I guess I was able to channel that anger into a creative outlet, like video games, this wasn’t always a good thing. I would rage at other people in games or get mad at myself pretty easily. I think another part of it is because I reconciled my abuse and feel if I can tell my story I can help others. I live an incredible life I am grateful for and a life of beauty. I believe that was the reason I am here, which is to influence and raise awareness in men's lives...to let them know they can find light at the end of the tunnel. And if that is why I went through it it makes perfect sense to me.