I talk about how different things are really triggering me about my job and it all dawned on me in a rush yesterday.  I feel like I'm in trouble all the time and I can't stand it.  I also am rubbing up against the fact that I am used to being the answer man, but in this job I don't know enough and have to constantly ask others for help.  I think all this button-pushing is actually good for me and is helping me recognize, work through and clear some long-buried stuff, but yesterday it really got me down.