There’s this song by the rapper and artist Wale entitled “Sabtoge”. It came out years ago and i used to bop it so loudly, screaming the lyrics “Pessimism is all that she knows, ‘ cause every brother always picks up and go..” not realizing how truly relatable these lyrics, hell the entire song will be the highlight of some of my adult romantic interactions in my 30s. First off, Wale has always been ahead of his time and this song was very much chef’s kiss, but why? Why do we in our big age get the blessings we so persistently pray for just to…sabotage them. Is it our familiarity in trauma and toxic ass previous relationships, that when “it falls right in (our) laps, (we) be ready to get up” like the song belts? On this week's episode I explore my past, and present experiences and how they affect the receiver, essentially, the bruised.