In this deeply personal and unscripted episode of Girl Meets God, Crystal opens up about a season of transition—from the person she used to be, to the woman God is calling her to become.

She shares honestly about her fear of being seen, something that feels ironic considering how much of her life she spent wanting attention, validation, and affirmation. From curating her image online and finding confidence through how others perceived her, to eventually wanting to disappear altogether, Crystal reflects on what was underneath the image: insecurity, depression, unhealed wounds, and a deep desire to control how others perceived her.

But God began to change that.

Crystal talks about what it has looked like to step away from an old identity, enter a season of isolation and wilderness, and learn to find her identity in Christ rather than in beauty, attention, perfection, or other people's opinions.

She also opens up about the uncomfortable transition from the wilderness into the harvest—the strange reality of praying for something for so long and then realizing that the promise has actually arrived.

What do you do when God finally gives you what you've been asking for?

For Crystal, the answer is learning to steward the promise well.

The conversation takes an unexpected turn when she reads through Deuteronomy 8, and the passage becomes a timely reminder that the same God who sustained her in the wilderness will sustain her in the promised land. The warning is just as important as the promise: don't forget the Lord when the harvest comes.

This episode explores:

• Fear of being seen and fear of being misunderstood
• The difference between worldly confidence and confidence in God
• Social media, validation, and curating an image
• Moving away from an old identity
• Depression, insecurity, and hidden struggles
• Learning to let God defend you instead of defending yourself
• Perfectionism and pride
• The wilderness season
• Moving from isolation into a season of harvest
• Learning how to steward answered prayers
• Discipline and obedience
• Discipleship and "feeding His sheep"
• Deuteronomy 8 and remembering God in the promised land
• Trusting God when you can't predict what He's doing
• Learning to receive what you prayed for

Scripture mentioned

Deuteronomy 8:1–18 — remembering God's faithfulness in the wilderness and remaining faithful when entering the promised land.

John 21:15–17 — Jesus' instruction to Peter: "Feed my sheep."

2 Timothy 1:7 — God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.

1 John 4:18 — perfect love casts out fear.

1 Corinthians 2:9 — what God has prepared is beyond what we can see or imagine.

James 1:5 — asking God for wisdom.

The takeaway

The wilderness wasn't wasted.

God was feeding, teaching, humbling, strengthening, and preparing you—even when you felt like you had nothing.

And when you finally enter the harvest, the assignment isn't to forget the One who brought you there.

Remember the Lord your God.

Don't let the blessing become more important than the Blesser. Don't let the harvest make you forget the wilderness. Don't let answered prayers make you forget who answered them.

The same God who sustained you in the wilderness is the God who will teach you how to steward the promise.

You don't have to know exactly what to do next. You just have to keep walking with Him.

After more than a month away, I'm finally back—and this episode is an honest update on where I've been.

Over the past several weeks, I've walked through one of the most spiritually intense seasons of my life. Between spiritual warfare, confronting generational patterns, beginning therapy, and facing my mental health head-on, the Lord has been doing a deep work in me.

For years, I've struggled with depression and anxiety, and this season forced me to stop pretending I was okay. Therapy, prayer, community, and God's grace have all been part of my healing journey, and while I'm still growing, I can confidently say that the joy of the Lord has met me in a way I never expected.

In this episode, I share:

• Why I stepped away from the podcast
• My journey with depression, anxiety, and starting therapy
• What God has been teaching me through spiritual warfare and breaking unhealthy patterns
• How the Lord has been restoring my joy and strengthening my faith
• Why Girl Meets God is entering a new season
• The podcast's new upload schedule and what's coming next

If you've been in a season where you feel exhausted, spiritually drained, or like God has been doing hidden work in your life, I pray this episode reminds you that He is still faithful. Sometimes God calls us away from the noise—not to abandon us, but to heal us.

New episodes will now be released on the first and third Wednesday of every month.

Thank you for being here. I'm so grateful you're walking this journey with me. 🤍

In this thought-provoking episode of Girl Meets God, Kristal explores the difficult but important topic of cultural practices, idolatry, spiritual influences, and the ways believers can unknowingly participate in things that may not align with their faith. Drawing from her own experiences growing up in Jamaica, she reflects on cultural traditions she once participated in and how studying their origins led her to ask deeper questions about spirituality, worship, and biblical truth.

Throughout the episode, she discusses the importance of discernment, biblical knowledge, and testing everything against Scripture rather than accepting practices simply because they are popular, traditional, or culturally accepted. Kristal shares why she believes many Christians lack awareness of the spiritual roots behind certain activities and emphasizes the need to seek God for wisdom, understanding, and revelation.

This conversation touches on:

• cultural traditions and faith
• idolatry and spiritual compromise
• biblical discernment
• the importance of knowledge and understanding
• testing practices against Scripture
• spiritual awareness
• obedience to God
• conviction versus condemnation
• navigating culture as a Christian
• pursuing truth over tradition

With honesty, conviction, and personal reflection, this episode encourages listeners to examine their own lives, seek biblical wisdom, and ensure that their worship, devotion, and allegiance belong fully to God. Whether you agree with every perspective shared or are simply exploring these topics for yourself, this conversation is an invitation to think critically, study Scripture deeply, and pursue a closer walk with Christ.

In this vulnerable episode of Girl Meets God, Kristal opens up about a recent season of prayerlessness and hopelessness—a season where she felt like she had run out of words, run out of strength, and even begun to lose hope in prayers she had been praying for a long time.

Through honest reflection and biblical encouragement, she shares what it looked like to wrestle with disappointment, spiritual fatigue, and the temptation to stop praying altogether. Kristal discusses how hopelessness can quietly affect our faith, our prayer lives, and our trust in God's timing, while reminding listeners that these struggles are more common than many believers realize.

Drawing from Scripture and personal experience, she shares practical ways God helped her navigate this season, including praying the Word of God when she had no words of her own, leaning on Christian community for support, setting aside pride to ask for prayer, and learning to speak with God honestly as a friend.

This episode is a reminder that even when faith feels weak, God remains faithful. If you've ever felt spiritually exhausted, discouraged by unanswered prayers, or unsure of how to keep going, this conversation offers hope, encouragement, and a reminder that you are not alone. Though we may be afflicted, we are not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair. God is still present, even in the seasons when we struggle to find the words to pray.

In this deeply honest episode of Girl Meets God, Kristal opens up about repentance, remorse, backsliding, surrender, and the overwhelming grace of God. Through personal testimony and biblical reflection, she explores the difference between true repentance and self-condemnation, sharing how God revealed the condition of her heart and brought her through seasons of rebellion, shame, conviction, and restoration.

This episode dives into the reality of loving sin, struggling with unforgiveness toward yourself, choosing people and worldly desires over God, and believing the lie that you’ve gone too far for God to still want you. Kristal speaks candidly about her own experiences with backsliding, spiritual emptiness, and trying to outrun God, while reminding listeners that no one is beyond the reach of His mercy and grace.

Drawing from scriptures and stories like Peter, Judas, Jonah, Hannah, and Romans 6, this conversation highlights the importance of repentance, the fear of the Lord, dying to self, and fully surrendering to Christ. The final part of the episode focuses on how we overcome sin and spiritual bondage: through the blood of Jesus, surrender, leaving the world behind, asking God for a new heart, and allowing Him to transform us from the inside out.

This episode is a reminder that the blood of Jesus is powerful enough to cleanse every sin, heal every broken place, and restore anyone willing to truly surrender to God. Whether you’re wrestling with shame, stuck in cycles of sin, struggling to let go of the world, or trying to find your way back to God, this conversation offers both conviction and hope for the journey ahead.

In this episode of Girl Meets God, Kristal dives into the importance of truly knowing and understanding the Word of God as a believer. Through scripture, personal reflection, and biblical examples, she explores how a lack of knowledge leaves Christians vulnerable to deception, temptation, spiritual warfare, and false teaching.

Using passages from Matthew 4, Genesis 3, Ephesians 6, Isaiah 5, and James 1, this episode breaks down how the enemy twists scripture, attacks identity, and uses our own desires against us — just as he did with Eve in the garden and Jesus in the wilderness. Kristal emphasizes the importance of studying scripture in context, understanding God’s character, and storing the Word in your heart so you can discern truth, resist temptation, and remain grounded in your faith.

This conversation also touches on:

• spiritual warfare
• false prophets and discernment
• identity in Christ
• temptation and deception
• repentance and conviction
• the armor of God
• learning God’s character through scripture
• meditating on the Word
• knowing scripture for yourself

With honesty, passion, and biblical insight, this episode is both an encouragement and a call to action for believers to go deeper in their relationship with God through His Word. Whether you’re new to reading the Bible or looking to strengthen your spiritual foundation, this episode will remind you why scripture is essential for every season of the Christian walk.

In the very first official episode of Girl Meets God, Kristal opens up about the hidden sins and heart issues that often go unnoticed by others but are fully seen by God. Through honest reflection and personal testimony, she shares how the Lord began revealing deeper issues within her heart — anger, bitterness, envy, comparison, idolatry, pride, and unforgiveness — and how conviction drew her closer to true repentance and transformation.

This episode explores the difference between outward holiness and inward purity, reminding listeners that God cares deeply about the condition of our hearts, not just the sins people can visibly see. Kristal speaks candidly about learning to surrender idols, overcoming comparison, forgiving others genuinely, and allowing God to expose and heal the hidden places within us.

With biblical insight, personal stories, and encouragement for believers navigating their walk with Christ, this episode is a heartfelt reminder that God is faithful to cleanse, renew, and transform us when we invite Him into the deepest parts of our hearts.

If you’ve been struggling silently with bitterness, insecurity, comparison, unforgiveness, or hidden battles no one else sees, this conversation will encourage you to let God search your heart and lead you into freedom, holiness, and intimacy with Him.

Welcome to the very first episode of Girl Meets God — a raw, unfiltered prelude into Kristal’s journey of faith, waiting, healing, and transformation. In this deeply personal episode, Kristal opens up about what it has been like to wait on the Lord for the past year while navigating isolation, spiritual refinement, surrender, and growth.

Through honest storytelling and biblical reflection, she shares how God used a season of wilderness to heal her internally — restoring her from anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, instability, and spiritual emptiness while rooting her deeply in Him. Though she felt hidden and isolated, she realized God was doing the unseen work: strengthening her foundation, refining her character, and teaching her how to trust Him fully.

This episode explores themes of:

• waiting on God
• wilderness seasons
• spiritual refinement
• healing and restoration
• faith during uncertainty
• isolation and intimacy with God
• God’s provision in hard seasons
• trusting God’s promises
• transformation through surrender

With references to biblical figures like David, Job, Joseph, Daniel, and the Israelites in the wilderness, Kristal reflects on how every difficult season has purpose and how God remains faithful even when life feels uncertain. This episode is both a testimony and a reminder that God often works most deeply in the hidden seasons before the visible breakthrough comes.

If you’re currently in a waiting season, feeling isolated, discouraged, or uncertain about what God is doing in your life, this episode will remind you that the wilderness is not wasted and that God is still refining, healing, and preparing you for what’s ahead.