I felt the panic creep in along with the whiney voice at first, then I caught it and turned it around. I didn't have it today. I could not get my partner off me, and at first it got to me. But then, I switched tactics and used that time to get better at counters, defense, and technique over strength. I learned a lot tonight, all because I took back control over my thoughts. And my effort was all I had tonight. It wasn't 100% of Kevin, but it was 100% of what I had today.