Trigger Warning: This episode includes discussion of suicidal ideation

This might be the most vulnerable episode I’ve ever recorded. I open up about the times my emotions took me to the edge. When the weight of pain, trauma, and abandonment made me feel like I didn’t want to live anymore. I talk about how I used to settle for anyone who would choose me, even people who hurt me, just to feel something. Just to not feel alone.

But God didn’t let me stay there.

He delivered me from depression, and now I’m trusting Him to break anxiety and fear next. I share how even though God’s love is real, it doesn’t always feel familiar, because when all you’ve known is chaos, peace feels foreign.