This song was originally written as a fairly quick kind of post-punk dance number, fairly high bpm.

Then a weird thing started happening whenever I would practise it or even perform it out and about, slowed down and acoustic - on piano or guitar.

It was only then that the real emotion and nature of the song started to come through. Which just goes to show, even if you write the song yourself you don't necessarily know how it will sound best yourself.

Here's my slowed down guitar-only version. I think it really allows the nature of it to come through.

LYRICS

From far above the frozen sea

D’you think you’ll ever notice me?

As I give myself constantly

Kept overkeen, kept feverish

But keep devout, keep faith in this

Transfixed upon a deeper wish

..I wasn’t here

Wish I wasn’t here

No matter what I do

No matter how I try

Not brave enough

Or cool or tough

Not good enough, am I?

No matter what I say

No matter what I do

Can’t give enough

To keep this love

Not good enough for you

Acceptance meant much more to me

Than fairness or stability

So now what’s left is killing me

Humiliation has its price

Intoxication has its vice

This situation, is it nice?

…is overrated

Nice is overrated

No matter what I do

No matter how I try

Not brave enough

Or cool or tough

Not good enough, am I?

I hide myself in shadows I find

I keep my own needs outta my mind

Completely always totally blind

To all the

Things that I need

No matter what I do

No matter how I try

Not brave enough

Or cool or tough

Not good enough, am I?

Words and music Copyright (C) 2025 Mark CBH

Lyrics reproduced with permission