This song is kind of about having two conflicting states of mind that are constantly fighting with one another, and maybe even causing each other.
On the one hand, it's about being an over-pleaser, and going flat out to try and satisfy and impress another person, but being resentful that they don't notice or appreciate your frantic efforts.
The other side of the song is that in doing this, you actually end up putting your own needs last and pretending that you want what they want.
The underlying question of the song is this: Do you attract people who are hard to please, because you yourself need to feel worthless?
Who knows.
Anyway, here are the lyrics. Go figure.
LYRICS
From far above the frozen sea
D’you think you’ll ever notice me?
As I give myself constantly
Kept overkeen, kept feverish
But keep devout, keep faith in this
Transfixed upon a deeper wish
..I wasn’t here
Wish I wasn’t here
No matter what I do
No matter how I try
Not brave enough
Or cool or tough
Not good enough, am I?
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
Can’t give enough
To keep this love
Not good enough for you
Acceptance meant much more to me
Than fairness or stability
So now what’s left is killing me
Humiliation has its price
Intoxication has its vice
This situation, is it nice?
…is overrated
Nice is overrated
No matter what I do
No matter how I try
Not brave enough
Or cool or tough
Not good enough, am I?
I hide myself in shadows I find
I keep my own needs outta my mind
Completely always totally blind
To all the
Things that I need
No matter what I do
No matter how I try
Not brave enough
Or cool or tough
Not good enough, am I?
Words and music Copyright (C) 2025 Mark CBH
Lyrics reproduced with permission