Good morning everyone.
Let’s look into this I, the I thought.
When the thought about myself or I comes up in many different contexts,
What exactly is it referring to?
What is this I that says I am?
So let’s be on holiday together.
Blown wide open.
Pure knowing/being here and now.
Everything has its momentary display, doesn’t it?
All of the objects of the senses, you know, the visual objects, they’re not here all the time.
They’re changing all the time, constantly.
Objects of sound, smell, taste, touch, those all appear momentarily and change.
That which knows those appearances is here always, though, isn’t it?
The eternal, ever-present knowing being.
This has been true your whole entire life, actually,
no matter what’s come and gone,
your whole life,
that hasn’t changed,
the knowing of it, being.
And you can prove that to yourself because whenever you have a holiday,
whenever you look,
that’s always the same,
no matter what’s happening.
Let’s be that for a moment.
And in this knowing being, also, thoughts appear.
And as I’m sure you’ve noticed, they are almost always referring to a me here.
They have something to do with me.
But what is this I thought, the original thought, I, the I thought, what is that referring to?
Let’s say a thought appears,
“I have regret”,
or “I have concern about the future”,
or “I am angry,”
or “I am sad”,
or any of these.
What is the thought I have regret referring to?
Who is the I that has regret?
Let’s try to use a practical example here.
Let’s say a memory appears of something you did wrong 10 years ago.
And
Completely inherent in that thought itself is also the feeling of regret.
And so the memory appears of something I did 10 years ago.
The feeling that was wrong and of regret appears and the thought immediately is that “I” have this regret.
As you probably can notice in that example,
the memory or thought of that event,
the feeling of that was wrong and regret,
and the sense that it is I that have that regret,
all arise at the same time.
It’s one thing.
And interestingly,
maybe very quickly,
maybe not,
but let’s say very quickly,
that thought goes and the sense of the I that has the regret also goes with it.
Because other than the thought, feeling,
and claiming it to be I,
is there actually an I behind all of that?
Let’s be on holiday now, blown wide open knowing.
No thoughts in this moment.
And this is just one example.
I’m sure all of us have regrets in our life.
They’re blown wide open knowing here and now.
Where are any of those now?
Where is the I that has those regrets now?
If the regret isn’t appearing,
and the feeling of that regret isn’t appearing,
and the I that has the regret isn’t appearing,
then which I is being referred to when that does appear?
The thought, I have regret, is only referring to itself, the thought of regret.
It’s circular, self-reflective in this way.
The thought, I have a regret, the I is only referring to the thought itself, I have a regret.
So when that thought goes, the I goes with it.
That I that has a regret
is very temporary, isn’t it?
It has no substance at all, actually.
It’s only a thought.
That’s all it is, isn’t it?
And to say it again, it’s inseparable from the thought itself.
The I that has the thought is the thought.
There’s no separation between the I that has the thought and the thought.
The I is the thought.
And when the thought goes, the I that is accompanying it goes as well.
And of course, that’s one example,
but we can apply that to everything that happens in the mind,
isn’t it?
Notice also that all the thoughts that happen in the mind refer to the very root thought,
which is I am separate.
That root thought is the first thought out of which all of the other accompanying
thoughts lay.
And they appear simultaneous as well.
And that’s easily verifiable because now on a holiday, the I thought is not there.
There’s only pure being, pure knowing.
And none of the other thoughts are there as well.
This is something to just notice through your day.
No effort or stress or force, anything like that.
Just notice.
Just note.
All of these thoughts refer to a so-called I.
But when the thought subsides, the I that is attached to it also subsides, and vice versa.
So the separate I concept, and it’s fine, I don’t, you know,
denigrate anything.
That separate I can appear and disappear, you know, what to do.
That’s fine.
But know what’s going on here is all.
Just know what’s true.
And knowing what’s true is what sets you free.
Not killing something.
But that separate individual I, where is it?
If it is actually a thing, then it will be here always.
And clearly that’s just not true.
During deep sleep and many times during the day, the I thought, the sense of I am is not.
It only appears in conjunction with its own movement of thinking.
But also it appears with a feeling in the body to say, “I feel that I am here in the body”.
Maybe you feel the chest or the throat or behind the eyes.
But that also comes and goes, doesn’t it?
It’s not here all the time.
It’s only here if you’re aware of it.
If you’re not aware of it, then it doesn’t exist.
And if you are aware of it,
you have to recognize that I am aware of that feeling,
so that can’t be me if I am aware of it.
And so,
Just notice during the course of your day,
like I said a minute ago,
just very relaxed,
you know,
don’t make a big thing out of it.
Just kind of, oh yeah, notice.
When a thought appears, the I is attached to it.
And when the thought vanishes, so does that I that’s attached to it.
The I that is being referred to by that thought is the thought itself.
That’s all.
The I that’s being referred to is the thought itself.
I have regret.
The regret is the I in that moment.
Or, I am concerned about the future, the concern is the I in that moment.
The I is the concern.
And when that concern goes, so goes the I as well.
And what’s left?
The vast ocean of being
And I think tomorrow, maybe I’ll talk a little bit more about that.
What is that?
It’s good to be with you.
I’ll be back again tomorrow.
Peace.
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