Grace Undeserved

This episode was recorded October 11, 2021. I’m finally having the courage to publish it. Join me as I express my thoughts and feelings about my grandfather‘s suicide. I speak of mental illness, suicide, alcoholism, bipolar, being an adult child of an alcoholic, loss and grief etc. I speak about my spiritual beliefs and how those beliefs helped me understand things a little better. I’m extremely vulnerable as I share these things. I have wanted to share them for so long. If you are contemplating suicide don’t do it! You are loved!

Listen in on a conversation I have with my 18-year-old. We decided as we were sitting in the parking lot of Baskin Robbins to just record an episode for this podcast and you get to listen in on our ramblings and laughing and goofiness. I hope you enjoy it. I sure did as I listened to it to see you f I wanted to edit some things out or not. Decided to keep it as it is. #ASD #ADHD #motherdaughter

Santa must’ve gotten my gift mixed up with someone else’s. I didn’t ask for Covid for Christmas… or did I? I share with you how I am feeling. The things I am doing that help. Trying to keep it real.. but not too real yet. I can’t drive away my few loyal listeners.. yet. 😘

I share the thoughts that are going through my mind this morning. ASD diagnosis? A LONG YEAR of advocating for myself and one of my children. I’ve been searching for answers so I know which direction to go. WELCOME to my rollercoaster ride! I should be sharing my thoughts with my counselor NOT the world…however I am too busy and so is she for me to get in to see her. 🤷🏼‍♀️ Plus my family is probably tired of me talking too much. Let’s hope the BIOTE Testosterone Pellets work again. I have an appointment right now! ENJOY LOL

Listen as I share my week with you. I share some things that triggered me to have a panic attack! I am recognizing more and more about myself. The struggle is REAL and difficult at times. However in this storm (that is my life) the Lord has been and ALWAYS will be my anchor. I NEED JESUS everyday. 😃

The Lord is in the details of our lives! What have I been doing these past couple of weeks? Why did we decide to sell our home? Our boys need a bigger yard. A place to run. Have we found a place? Listen to this story.

I share with you my struggles with anxiety and recent depression. Keeping it real. Not edited. Listen in fastest mode. As I just speak from my heart to share with you what I’ve recently experienced. Hormonal imbalance? What does depression feel like? What are some lies that we believe that don’t serve us? Who are you? Do you have support? Do you have mental health challenges like I do? Do you know someone who struggles with anxiety and depression? Bipolar, PTSD, childhood trauma? Are you suffering in silence because you can’t find the help you need or someone doesn’t understand? Do you struggle with trusting others? Listen to a piece of my story here. You have a friend in me!

How can I go from walking/jogging/running 4 miles a day to not being able to walk across the room without having heart palpitations etc. What was going on with my body? I know I’m not alone in my struggles. Let’s get through our struggles together! Do you struggle with sugar addiction? Perfectionism? Pain? How are you getting healthy? Do you want to Lose weight? What kind of Diet/Food do you crave and eat?Negative thinking? Do you listen to your body? How are you at navigating our medical system and advocating for yourself when your body is struggling? TMI in this episode…..maybe. However, maybe listening will help you know you are not alone and maybe just maybe you will laugh along with me!

I wanted to honor my former mother-in-law and wish her a Happy Birthday in heaven. (September 28th) Mary Sue passed away on March 5, 2012 and I have missed her ever since. I invited my daughter Maggie to join me and to share with you some stories about her grandma. She was nine years old when she passed away.

Listen as I share my experience having a miscarriage when I was a young newlywed. Have you experienced a miscarriage and feel alone? Are grieving a loss? Feeling like your loved ones don’t understand? Depression, anxiety, hormonal changes? I will be sharing more about my losses I’ve had. Love yourself. Your grief is because of the great love you have for your child.