Grief House - Portals

What happens when the worst thing arrives?

What makes the worst thing the worst? How does it stay the worst? What happens if it doesn't? What breaks and what doesn't when the worst thing shows up at the door? What takes the place of the worst thing when the worst thing is past? 

In this episode Sascha and I compare notes about worst things we have outlived and those we are currently dreading. Come peruse the worst of the worst with us!

In this special episode two of my favorite Portland women, Jenny Serna and Moe Bowstern,  talk about their magic.   

We constructed this episode in a universe's grab-bag/Stir The Pot sort of way - I made a list of questions, Moe and Jenny took turns choosing numbers and we trusted the swirling everything to turn up what wanted considering. It was perfect as they are perfect as this whole beautiful, devastating, glorious thing is perfect.

Take a listen!

In this special episode Sascha talks with our friend Rachel the space where magic meets intensive care. 

Rachel is a ICU nurse and a student of paganism and traditional Earth Magic from the British Isles. She and Sascha talk about the intersection of these two aspects of her life and work, how one might protect magic while embracing modern medicine and allow both to be alive and protected during powerful moments of transition.

In this episode, Sascha and I talk about Trust and Risk - by which, I think, we mean love; because there's no way to untangle them.

Love is risky. It's trustworthy in a devastating, heartbreaking, generous, way that makes no sense at all and is the only thing that makes any sense.

 We discuss tigers, rabbits, shadow girls, flaming garbage, safety and fear.

In this episode about risk Sascha and I explore the varied ways we gage the danger of any given situation. We talk about mothers, swings, logs in the woods. We make note of the ways our sure and imminent death plays into our calculations and  how grateful we are for the hard, brave work past versions of ourselves have done in service of our current selves.

Come join us on this friendly romp through risky landscapes!

This month on the podcast we're feeling deeply into numbness. 

In this our second episode we explore strategies for thawing - should the desire for sensation arise. We offer hot cocoa, secret audio messages, moaning and proximity to lakes as methods to more toward more feeling. We also spend a lot of time talking about how thawed isn't better and frozen isn't worse. Thaw if thawing is right. Re-freeze whenever you need to. Sascha and I will skate and swim happily in any of your states.

In this feelings episode Sascha and I discuss numbness. We decide it is useful and problematic, a path to deeper feeling and a worrisome defensive move. We ponder surgical numbness, numbness brought on by waterfalls, and times when numbness leads to far too many vacuum cleaners. we hope you will enjoy our romp through numbness.

In this special episode my best friend Emmy Garr and I discuss everything in the bowl; memories from our friendship, our trip to the casino, gross things we love, the time I made her room mate very mad and more. 

We offer a glimpse into friendship that can't possibly be ranked below any other kind of love. Plus you get to heat Emmy's voice - which is the most lovely voice. Don't pass this chance up, folks. Don't pass it up.

Q: What's happening in that picture with all the plaid?
A: Sascha and I are dancing the Salty Dog at our high school pep rally.

Q: But, why?
A: Because we started a bowling club.

Q: But...why?
A: It depends on who you ask.

More questions? Listen to this bonus episode! 
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In this episode Sascha and I discuss the trouble of just and more than friends. 

We offer hues that fall outside the spectrum as we were raised to understand it, try to see each other shake in love we can't make into easy labels and feel grateful for our perfect, wonderful only/more than friendship.