Hi, I am Cristi Habermann, the host of Grieving Insomanics a podcast about grief. In 2011 I lost my oldest son to cancer when he was 25 years old. Immediately, upon his death, I felt guilty about everything I could have, would have, or should have done. The guilt and shame I felt about his death became my constant companion. It is a subject that is whispered but never fully acknowledged in child loss. This first episode in a series titled Mom's guilt explores the definitions of grief and shame and the role of childhood experiences in the ability to cope with the death of a child. Cristi uses her own experiences to encourage others to get real about their grief. It is only through sharing our grief stories that the culture of silence surrounding the loss of a child will be changed. Cristi uses the #nomorehidinggrief as a way to encourage an open expression of grief surrounding the loss of a child for as long as a person chooses. Grieving a child is not complicated, nor is it a mental illness. It is an open expression of love.