For years I wanted to pursue Jesus with my all but I just couldn’t stay committed and faithful to him. I would keep falling into sin and was in an endless cycle of shame and guilt because of it. Finally God let me up a mountain with an old friend who had been involved in some witchcraft at the time and there I spoke directly to Satan, telling him that Jesus alone was my Lord and I was no longer afraid of Him. Everything changed after that...

The previous episode about rejection led me to a truth about myself I haven’t confessed and admitted to until now and in a time of repentance this week Jesus revealed to me the extent of that sin that I’ve carried on since I was a child. What an incredible experience of repentance this was and I just can’t wait for you to hear it. I hope it moves you also to take time to ask Jesus to search your heart and repent (turn away from) whatever has been holding you back from flourishing. Visit www.grittyfaith.co for access to the resources I mention in the podcast.

Let’s talk rejection. This is the realest I’ve ever been about this area of my life. I usually gloss over it because I’m afraid that if I talk about it it will lead to even more rejection. But I know the power of vulnerability and I know now the purpose of my experiences and what Jesus did through them. For those who are struggling with rejection right now, I pray that this brings you hope and makes you feel loved. Because YOU ARE LOVED.

For the inaugural episode of the Gritty Faith podcast I wanted to share a major part of my testimony, about the sin that so enraptured me and kept me from pursuing Jesus, and about the incredible ways Jesus continued to pursue me despite my failings. It’s the most raw I’ve ever been about this topic but I want you to know that no matter where you are, Jesus can redeem your life. If you want to chat about it or learn more about Gritty Faith’s resources, find us on Instagram @grittyfaith. If you enjoyed it, subscribe to show support.

Welcome to the podcast. I hope you feel free and comfortable to be vulnerable here, we’re all about that. Vulnerability is powerful! In 1 Corinthians 1 Paul says ‘I preach the gospel not with words of eloquent wisdom, lest the cross of Christ be emptied if it’s power’. We don’t have to have it all together, that’s Jesus’ job