In order for me to trust the Trinity in my now, I need a way to see them present and active in my now.

I didn't want to look back and see how they had done something, or to hope they might do something in the future, I needed to see how they are present and active now.

I found both. That they are always present and here and near and intimately available. And that they are always active and vital and committed and generating the new.

What followed was some of the most heartbreaking moments of my life, where my wonder was broken and repaired, and where I saw the Trinity powerfully present and active in my life and the lives around me.

NOTE: I had so much trouble reading this out. At times I sound emotionless, and other times my voice is breaking. Sorry.

Episode 14/20