One of the other things that stopped me trusting the Trinity to call me into flourishing was their justice.

I felt they were unjust, especially that good and bad people flourished. I wanted the good to flourish and the bad people to receive justice, which here meant punishment.

What I failed to understand was that I was sometimes the bad guy. And, more importantly, I had no wonder for how their justice held mercy, love and forgiveness.

When I began to have wonder for this, I realised how their justice called me into life, released me into life, freed from all the mess that got in my way.

What I found was that having been released into this, and holding wonder for all that the Trinity is, I began to be described as foolishly courageous, and I was pleased to be called it.

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