Guilt & Grief — two emotions that should never go hand-in-hand, yet they almost always do. And when they collide, the result can be devastating.

From the very first day of my grief journey, guilt took hold of me. It all traced back to one moment—one decision—while my dad was in the hospital. That moment haunted me for nearly a year. I believed that by punishing myself with guilt, I was somehow staying connected to him… or paying penance. But the truth? Guilt brought me nothing but pain. It stole my peace, blocked my healing, and dimmed my joy.

This episode is deeply personal and, honestly, terrifying for me to share. But I believe it's time. If you're carrying guilt over something from your loss—if you’re struggling to forgive yourself—I hope this story gives you the courage to let go and begin your healing.

No one should have to navigate loss alone. Always here to support & listen. Follow along at @NewellaMusic on Instagram and TikTok.