A sense you're called

Healthy thoughts sputter and stall

Day out and out again

It tears the skin

so full of that hate you earned

I live in the shadow of the whip

and await what I deserve

I deserve this

everything wrong and rotten survives

everything we think we know is a lie

Fell, tripped up the stairs to this place

Primal winds come and blow me away

I’m swimming in chains, now

I won’t reach out

Something’s been fucking holding me down

It’s made it’s way through my arms

Im asleep, I’ve lost all control

Wake up. I watch it live out my life

I dont deserve it anymore

I don’t deserve it

Your eyes like old plates

Dull and wide and webbed with veins

You lose your thought

Tongue exposed when you're turned on

I see you thrilled

And that swell of joy, it lasts until

We catch a glance

Of this sad fucked world

I’m asleep, I’ve lost control

I watch it live my life

I dont deserve it anymore

A plume of smoke around us now

Hands locked on our long walk home

Im asleep, I’ve lost control