The backlash of using (meaning picking up the drug of your choice) is often exceedingly more painful and can last longer than the original craving and impulse to get high. The repercussions often have lasting and deleterious effects. 

My name is Julie, I have been in recovery since 1987, formally in the grips of an addictive disease that nearly claimed my life. I was one of the lucky ones, stay the course. Xx