The steps back to Allah are not unnoticed by Him -- the desire to be close to Allah is what is distinguished. So, your steps are not small. Your questions are not silly. And your efforts to being better do not go unnoticed by God.

What does it mean to be loved by God? And how does the love of Allah manifest itself? How do I know if Allah loves me? With this first episode, I talk about this and how to be tried is to be loved