So I don't know how I'm going to deal with this TV noise. Today is officially two months off medications. And I'm feeling pretty good. But right now is the time I have warned myself about which is PMS time. So I'm feeling a little bit like how am I going to get through these next months, living in a small room with a TV going on the other side of the wall. And I haven't been exposed TV in many months. And I'd forgotten how much I dislike hearing it going on and on through the wall. And a lot of it's bad news. And there's just stuff that I don't want to hear all the time. It really bothers my nervous system. But it seems like I have a little bit of space from that right now. So I'm going to talk to myself. And yeah, two months off meds. Not sure how I'm going to do this next while I just don't really have open space to just talk to myself whenever I want unless I figure something out. A little less conversation a little more action. All this aggravation and satisfaction in me. That's what the lyrics say online. I didn't know satisfaction was a word. And I don't know if that's what is said in the song, but it's what it says online. Right now I'm struggling with what action to take. I maybe just want to keep talking to myself. And that's the action I want to take. Which isn't really action, but I don't know what else to do. I feel kind of trapped. And I need to slowly get in tune with a new epigesturetics matrix. My epigesturetics matrix from California is now gone. And I'm feeling it. It was different to just walk outside in nature and so much quiet so much darkness so much beauty. So it's taking some adjusting for sure. And I don't know if I will be able to adjust, I might need to find a way to get my own space sooner than I was planning. And I forgot to include my first grocery shopping video, trying to get some healthy food, whether or not I spend time making that healthy food is another story. 

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