The manifestation of God's mercy and grace is the greatest revelation of who God is (not His Power, His Greatness, not His Signs). It is in His capacity to love us and forgive us which is so remarkable.
Knowing the Word of God is critical to discerning between Absolute Truth and Objective Truth. Try adopting the language of Jesus; it harmonizes a belonging heart instead of a doubting one.
Bishop Ron teaching at Soaking Prayer on 8/1/19 on Matt 9 (the healing of the paralytic) and on Confession, Conviction and Guilt (what's the difference?) and God's amazing deal for believers.