"I 100 percent wanted to breastfeed. I knew about the benefits for mum and baby, and just thought it was something that I would do without question."

"I was desperate to know any detail to make me remember, to understand what I had been through. And that journey helped me heal."

Clare’s story highlights resilience, the power of informed choices, and the possibility of healing after birth trauma. Her first birth and breastfeeding experience was traumatic, marked by severe illness, sepsis, and spinal headaches, leaving her unable to nurse and leading to PTSD. With therapy and support, she processed her trauma, enabling a more positive second birth and a successful breastfeeding journey. Clare emphasises the importance of professional help, family support, and healing, crediting therapy for her recovery. Breastfeeding her second child became a meaningful part of that process, bringing closure and joy. 

00:00 Introduction to the Holding Time Podcast

00:51 Clare's Early Breastfeeding Challenges

03:13 Difficult Birth and Postpartum Struggles

09:40 Therapy and Recovery Journey

13:10 Second Pregnancy and Positive Experience

23:19 Reflections and Final Thoughts

26:14 Closing Remarks and Acknowledgement

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