When I was a kid, I loved all holidays, but as the years went by the love for holidays slipped away. I can’t count how many teachers I had in the past, who was supposed to help me grow and protect me, either took the bully side, try to fail me or find a way to get rid of me because they hated me. They knew my sister was a trouble maker, and they thought I was the same, which was wrong. No one knew I was sexually, mentally, verbally and physically abused, everyone though I started trouble and I was troubled one. They would only apologize when they caught got for their nasty behavior and was only trying to save their reputation. They would get mad because I didn’t accept their apology, why would I ? You showed your true self and you have no one else to blame but yourself. I walked away from so many relationships including my mom and sister. I broke cycles to save myself, and all I got in the end was trauma. I had to unlearn the behaviors I learned while being in survival mode. The pain still lingers, because I am grieving the ones who are still alive but too stubborn to admit their mistakes. Walking away was the best decisions I ever made but the hardest decision I had to make. I still support the education system even though I have many painful memories, I still support moms and many other things. Bullying someone because you were jealous, only ruined your life. The bridges burned can no longer be crossed. Many still living with their parents and are still holding grudges. Sometimes it’s not fair being a good person, but being a good person no matter what means I won’t have to fix bridges that were burned. The ones you throw away you will eventually come back around to them but it will be too late. Many things never heal, you just learn to be okay with it. I forgive the ones who hurt me but I never forgot what you did. You will reap what you sow.